The Baby Project | S.M. Fanfiction

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Ashley's P.O.V:

I come back home with Shawn. We sit in my room.

"Ashley, I think you should go to the therapist. It can't be that you commit suicide everytime you have a mental breakdown. What if I didn't come there at time? You would be not alive"

"But it was my first time doing it and last time, I promise." I say.

"But you will never know how you will act after another mental breakdown. I don't want to lose you"

"I know, but I am not ready to talk about my emotions."

"I promise I'll be there for you" He hold my hand.

"Does  my mom know?" I ask.

"Yes, we've talked about it before you...you know"

"Okay, I will do it then"

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So on next Friday, after lessons, I go to the therapist, as I promised. Shawn and I go to my mom's car. 

"Are you ready?" Shawn asks.

"Yeah, I think so" I say.

All the way to the therapist I am silent and looking through the passenger window. 

"Everything is gonna be okay sweetie" My mom says.

"I hope so" I say.

Finally, we pull in the parking lot. Shawn and I get out of the car. 

"Ashley, our dad will pick you up in an hour" My mom says'

"Okay, bye" I wave and she drives away.

We walk in the building and go to the secretary.

"Hello, I have my first appointment with Dr Adams" I start

"Please tell me your name and the hour of the appointment" 

"Ashley Parker, 3 p.m."

"Yes, you're on the list. Please take a seat, the doctor will call you in some minutes"

"Thanks" I smile and Shawn and I sit on the chairs in the waiting room. 

Suddenly I hear an employee of this clinic recognising Shawn.

"Oh hi Shawn, it's good to see you. How are you?" The woman asks.

"I'm okay, thank you. I'm sorry I need to go. It was good to meet you again"

And then again we are silent. I decide to broke the silent, to ask Shawn a question which makes me confused since when we came here.

"Did you attend appointments with the therapist?" I ask, but he doesn't answer. He just turns his head to not see my face. "Tell me" He looks again at me and takes a deep breath. 

"Yes, I went to the therapist. Because I was depressed. I lost a sister." His voice is cracking and I just froze. "It was early February, she was 5 and I was 10. We were building a snowman together. Our parents were helping us. Suddenly a drunk driver hit in our fence. He hit my sister who unfortunately couldn't make it. We still don't know how it happened that he got there. There wasn't a road" I see he has tears in his eyes. 

"I'm so sorry, I shouldn't have asked you about that"

"No, it's okay. I'm getting better"

"Is this a reason why you became a bad boy?" He just nods. 

"But why did you hate me and then you fell in love with me? I don't understand it" 

"You know, when a boy makes a fun of a girl, it means that he feels something to her"

"I've never heard something like that before" I roll my eyes and we start laughing

"Ashley Parker" Suddenly the doctor calls me.

"Go, I will wait for you" Shawn says and smiles. I smile back.

In all of the therapy I can't stop thinking about Shawn and his past. It's so unbelievable that he saw his little sister dying and he couldn't do anything.