letters to christian; christian akridge

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dear christian,

my name is rhyan and i'm 14 years old. i've been watching your vines for a while now. i'm not really in the best place right now. i have a lot of issues. they're problems i'm not ready to tell you yet. the only people who know are my mother and my sister.

my sister, darcy, tells me i'm a freak because of the things that are wrong with me. if only there was a way to make it stop, but there isn't. no one cares. my mother and my sister hate me. i'm not normal like them. i'm not confident like my mother. i'm not social like my sister. i'm not beautiful like my sister. i'm not smart like my mother. the things i go through at school hurt physically and mentally.

i'm bullied if you couldn't tell by now. i don't matter to anyone. everyone at school calls me worthless, ugly, nothing, and etc. i just want it all to stop. the only way i can get away from it all is by watching your vines. you make me feel as if there's something amazing waiting for me. i don''t understand the feeling i get when i watch you, but all i know is i want that feeling all the time. i guess that feeling is happiness.

the last time i felt happiness was when my father lived with us. that was seven years ago. a lot can happen in seven years. anyways, i'd like to thank you for making me happy every once in a while.

sincerely,

rhyan morris.
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this is basically an introduction chapter.