Savior in a Leather Vest

Nightmare, the fear relived

I'm laying there my eyes wide open as a man crawls over me. Putting his hand up to my face touching my bottom lip with his thumb. He takes his knife out cutting each button off of my flannel  hearing each of them flying off one after the other. Tears falling down my face "Don't touch me!" I plea but no sound is coming out of my mouth. He cuts my shirt completely off. He cuts my bra strap and it snaps off. "NO!!" I scream and my ears start to ring. He then cuts my pants off, the knife hits my skin cutting it deep. I scream out in pain but no one hears me, why can't anyone hear me. He licks the blood off his knife and I close my eyes in disgust. He pulls my pantie down my legs.
         I wake up screaming. "No...No please stop!" I scream and cry, tears running down my cheeks. I hear footstep run into the room and a hand on my face, around my mouth. I fight trying to get them off me, trying to get away, when another pair of hands pin me down. "You're safe, calm down" That was Daryl's voice I thought. Still crying and shaking. I try to stop freaking out, I open my eyes to see daryl sitting on the bed with his hand over my mouth. I see another man pinning me down, he slowly lets go of me. When Daryl lets go of my mouth, I sit up and curl up into a ball, Crying putting my head in between my knees.
     "Alex...You alright?" He asks and I shake my head no. "They'll get me. They'll do it again and again." I breath heavily in panic. "You're safe here. I'll protect ya" I shake my head and rock back and forth. "No one can protect me." I cry, hitting my head with my hands. "you should have just let me get eaten" I hit myself again. "Don't you say that and don't hit yourself. You are apart of this group now. We'll make sure you're safe." I slowly look up at him and then at the man who pinned me down. Tears still falling down my face. "He's Rick. He isn't going to hurt you." I nod still afraid. I look back at Daryl.
     I don't know why I trust this man, he makes me feel safe why? How can I trust him? He wouldn't hurt me, would he? Does he want to protect me? I question myself. It's not like I can live out there alone. He saved me and that doctor saved me. They didn't have to they could have just let me die but they didn't. They're still good people in this world. I lay back down and look at him. "I'm sorry, i'm really sorry." he just looks back at me. "Why are you sorry. It's those men fault." he says. I look back at the man named Rick. "Hello. I'm Alex" I swallow as i'm still afraid. "Rick." He says and looks at Daryl. "I'll be right back alright" Daryl says and I nod.
   Daryl walks out of the room with Rick. I can hear bits and pieces of they're conversation. "Kill them....I'll find the camp" That's Daryl "She panicking.....No it's not safe....she makes.....noise" and that's Rick's voice. I cry, does Rick not want me here? i'm causing the group to be in danger. I shouldn't be here, I should have died out there. I stand up walking out limping from my ankle. I walk out of the door past Daryl and Rick out the door, at night. Still almost naked. Everyone was staring, an old man on the RV, A boy near a tent, a women next to him and more. I can't be here! I run always run...Or at least trying to run. Trying to ignore the pain.