A Life Without You [Completed, Published Under Ukiyoto Publishing]

02.

"Ah, iyon ba? Si Noah ba kamo? Siya ang anak ng may-ari ng hospital na 'to. The hospital was named after his brother died, which is Nicklaus Brent." Saad ni Ate Lilac habang inilalapag ang mga pagkain ko sa bed table.

Tirik na ang araw ng magising ako, after our conversation with the stranger man at the roof top ay tinawanan ko lamang ito at bumababa na at agad na bumalik sa kwarto ko. He didn't followed me and I'm glad with that. Sino ba naman kasi ang gagawa nang ganoong bagay? After that night I never saw him again.

I only had the chance to ask Ate Lilac about him right now and I did not expect her to be serious like this. Aniya ay mas makulit pa raw ito kumapara sa bata madalas raw iyon noon sa taas nang rooftop kaso, isang araw ay nagtaka na lamang ang karamihan sa kanila kung bakit hindi na ito masyadong nagpupunta roon.

Sabi pa ni Ate Lilac ay dahil raw iyon sa isang insidenteng ikinagulat rin nila nang malaman. Masiyahing tao raw iyon, nguni't biglang nagbago raw ito nang timpla simula nang mawala ang kuya niya.

Nadatnan ko si Doc Dominic na nasa labas ng kwarto and I was right, kahit ilang beses ko pang takasan ang treatments alam 'kong naghihintay pa rin ito.

Every injected drugs at my body caused so much pain, I cried, I screamed and felt my body getting more weak until I fell asleep.

I woke up when I heard Ate Lilac's knocks  outside my room's door, agad rin naman siyang pumasok at habang nagpe-prepare ng pagkain ko kaya naisipan ko siyang tanungin ulit about sa lalaking nagngangalan na Noah.

To be honest, I don't know what to feel after the last word he said. Which is that letting him to be my guardian in disguise. Ano iyon? Guardian angel lang ang peg? Wala naman akong nakikitang masama roon but, why? Bakit niya naisipan iyon? Is it because he saw me crying and standing at that wall? Ayaw ko namang kaawaan ako ng tao. Perhaps, may ibang rason pa?

"Minsan lang iyon bumibisita rito, he hates hospitals so much since the incident happened." My forehead creased. Is that what he told me at the rooftop?

"It's not funny, you don't know how much it hurts when you can't save someone from the past as what you've did earlier."

For some reason, I felt curious about his past life. Pero, labas na ako roon. Kung ano man ang nangyari sa past life niya ay wala na akong kinalaman roon. Right now, all I have to think is myself. He is not related to me so, I wouldn't care that much. I guess?

However, playing jokes around him of me standing at the edge of that wall made me feel bad.

"Oh, nakatulala ka diyan? Kumain ka na at iinom ka pa ng mga medications mo, please don't over stress yourself okay? I'm also gonna bring more tablets para may stocks ka rito kapag naubusan ka na ng gamot." Saad nito.

I gave her a smile and nodded.

"Okay," I replied.

Nang matapos kumain ay napagpasyahan ko munang maligo, after that, I wear a simple black jeans and a lace blouse paired with black and white ankle boots. Sinuot ko rin ang black beanie na madalas 'kong dala.

I told my doctor and also Ate Lilac that I don't want to wear hospital dresses, gusto ko mabuhay pa rin ng normal na tao at animo'y walang sakit na iniinda. I don't want to feel so miserable. Miserable na nga ang buhay ko gagawin ko pang mas lalong miserable? Of course, not.