My Only Insanity *Shoey Fan fiction*

Chapter 9: I should've known.

{Joeys Pov}

We finally arrived to time square. They set up all my stuff after everyone else got off the bus, causing Luke and Mr. laws to have to wait, which I always feel guilty for.

They finally got me settled into my wheel chair.

Mr.Laws: Okay! Today we are going to have a blast!

Mr. laws ensured as the other nurse walked away with their patients. I watched as Shane walked away with Meghan and Phil. I wish Shane and I were partners, but Luke wouldn't be terrible. We got along pretty well.

Mr.Laws: Thank god those bitches are gone. I cant stand to be optimistic like this.

Mr.Laws joked, dramatically throwing his hand to his face. Luke and I laughed, and Luke took his hands out of his hoodie pocket and placed them on my handlebars, pushing my wheelchair.

Joey: I hope you don't mind...

Luke: No, not at all.

Luke decided to go to the library, which is expected. We walked into there, there being a maximum of twenty people there, for a library three stories high. Which is barely anyone at all.

Mr.Laws: You can call me Nick by the way. I'll be upstairs. You guys have fun and call me if you need anything.

He handed us the phones, which only had two buttons, a home button which connected to Nick's phone, and 911.

Luke: Will do.

We watched as Nick went up the stairs to the second floor.

Luke: Wanna have some fun?

Luke asked, excitedly, coming to the front of my wheelchair to look me in the eyes.

Joey: Like how?

Luke didn't answer, but quickly started to push my wheel chair. He pushed me to a slightly steep and long ramp, going downwards to the auditorium.

Joey: What are we-

Luke: Put your hands on your breaks.

Joey: Wait-

Luke: Hold on tight!

Before I know it, Luke gave the chair one big push with his foot and jumped on the small pegs on the back of it. We were going down the ramp quickly, and it felt, well I felt,

Amazing.

I listened as he laughed and hooted wildly behind me, and I felt the air rush past me. I watched as Luke fell off the back, tripping and laughing. I put my breaks on immediately, causing me to fly out of the chair.

Luke: Oh shit! Joey are you okay?

He rolled me on my back, and I laughed.

Joey: I'm perfect.

Luke stared deeply into my eyes. I stared back into his, they were dark with a hint of light, something tiredly interesting. He was kneed down beside me, with his hand on my stomach. I grabbed his chin softly in my hand, lifted my head up, and...

{Shanes Pov}

Meghan chose to go to the fucking library. Of fucking course.

Stupid partner, stupid escort, stupid library. Stupid, stupid, stupid!

We walked in, and Phil left to go to another floor.

We walked into the auditorium, since Meghan said it'd be quiet. I could probably do a little writing here and there, so I agreed willingly.

Meghan ran directly to an empty bench, but something caught my eye. Or someone. Or two someones.

Joey and Luke, making out on the floor.

I just lent up against the wall and waited.

Joeys eyes began to wander, until his eye caught mine. His eyes became wide, and I just let out a sarcastic smile, along with a tiny wave. He pushed Luke gently off of him. He sat up and Luke stared back at me, confused, as I clapped my hands together.

Shane: Aww, isn't this just like the books?

Joey just stared back at me, almost frightened. I walked over to Luke, standing over him.

Joey: Sorry, Shane! He didn't know and-

Shane: Save it for someone who cares. I'm out. Whatever we had that was going on, that obviously meant nothing to you,

I felt a tear roll down my cheek.

Shane: It's done.

I said through a cracked voice.

I turned around and walked quickly towards the bathroom. The black eyeliner I had lightly put on this morning ran down my face, and I ran my fingers through my messy hair. I walked into the bathroom, and locked the door, because it was a one person bathroom.

I screamed loudly at the mirror, throwing a tantrum. I pulled out the hand mirror I keep in my back pocket, and tried to calm down. I smashed the mirror against the edge of the sink, and after a couple tries, the glass shattered off the piece of plastic and onto the floor. I picked up the smaller pieces and dumped them in the trash can, along with the plastic it was once glued onto.

I kept the sharpest, largest piece in my hand, and sat down on the toilet, tugging my sleeves up.

{Joeys Pov}

Luke helped me back into my wheelchair.

Luke: I'm sorry. I didn't know...

I shook my head.

Joey: It's my fault.

I said, rubbing my temples.

Luke: You okay?

I laid my hands down on the arm rests.

Joey: Yeah, yeah. I mean, we were only an official couple for a couple hours. It's just,

I put my hand on my chest, right where I felt a deep burning.

Joey: My heart shouldn't hurt this bad.

My voice cracked at the last part, and I wiped my eyes to keep a tear from rolling from them.

Luke: Hey. You'll be okay.

He rubbed my back gently.

Joey: I know. I should've known it wouldn't last.

{Shanes Pov}

I felt like the universe was finally released from my skin, as if it was kept in my blood. It rolled down my wrists, and I finally felt relieved.

Relationship break ups that lasted only a couple hours shouldn't hurt so bad.

Shane: I should've known it wouldn't last.

I'm sick. I liked the way spilt blood looked on my wrist, and I liked the feeling. I liked the feeling of over whelming relief, I liked-

Phil: The bus is loading soon Shane, we gotta load.

I wiped my eyes and threw the piece of glass- actually, I'll hold onto it.

I gently set it in my jacket pocket and washed my hands and arms, and rolled down my sleeves.

I unlocked the door to see a very uncomfortable looking Meghan, like usual, and Phil.

We walked out of the library and loaded the bus. We had to wait for Joey, like usual.

The whole bus ride I felt his eyes on me, but didn't care enough to look back.

I stared out the window the whole ride, and walked quickly into the building as soon as we arrived.