I Won't Leave You

New Years

Emma's POV

I find myself wondering around Robins mansion looking for Regina. She's no where to be found and I hope to god she's not in bed with her boyfriend somewhere. I need my best friend right now. Especially with what I'm about to do to my boyfriend. I step outside onto his porch and hear people shift in their seats. I look to my right and Regina and Robin are cuddling on the swinging chair.

"Hey Regina. Could I borrow you for a moment?" I ask my friend. She kisses Robin on the cheek and informs him she will be right back. I pulled her inside and and she asked me if everything was okay. "I want to break up with Killian." I confess to her.

Her jaw immediately drops to the floor, if not then damn close. "E-Emma I didn't know. I thought you were really happy with him. I'm so sorry I didn't see it." She apologizes. And it breaks my heart because she doesn't see it. She doesn't see me or my emotions. I can read her so well and she's starting to forget me. I curse Robin for that. He's in the way.

"Gina, you don't need to apologize. It's just not working out between us. There is literally no chemistry." I throw my hands up in defeat and they drop to my thighs, clapping against them as I say 'chemistry'. 

She pulls me into a hug and says. "Well I won't ever make you be the third wheel." And I chuckle in response with a nod. "Don't wait too long to do it." She quickly says and gives me a tight squeeze, then she let's go completely. "Whatever you do, I'm here Emma. No matter how cheesy it sounds."

I softly smiled at her and looked down, taking a step back. "I'll go do it now." I quickly walked away from my crush and to my soon to be ex.

I did it fast and simple, leaving the man on the edge of his seat without my reason for my actions. I texted Regina and everyone gathered in rooms with TVs as the night came closer to an end. And the whole year. I looked over at my friend, us alone in the room and Robin downstairs with others. "Regina?" i asked her softly.

"Yes Emma?" she responded as she stared into my eyes, hers sparkling in the light. They looked like leaves in the autum, brown and slight green in the center. It was hard to make out but I had stared long enough into them to notice.

"Uh-" I snapped out of my trance and we looked at the tv as everyone counted down. 3.. 2.. 1. She looked at me and quickly latched onto her mouth, kissing her with all of my passion. I loved her with everything I was. Sure, we were high schoolers but she meant the world to me. Hesitantly, she kisses me back, looking at me as we pulled away."

"Emma.." she started, visibly upset and I just knew, I fucked up. "I'm with Robin." she whispered, alcohol on her breath and I nodded before rushing out of the room and then home.

Getting in the shower, the water steaming off of my skin, I sobbed hard as i practically pulled my hair out of my scalp. I hit the wall with my fist. Once. Twice. Three times. Four. Finally, blood dripped down my fingers and down the wall as my cries grew louder. "Fuck you!" I yelled at no one. "I hate this! I hate you!" I yelled again, directing it to myself as I sobbed and sat down on the floor of the steamy shower.

The hot water burned as it touched my bloody fist and it only helped me cry harder. And harder. And even harder over my high school heart break.