Country Love

Head First onto the Gravel

Two uploads in one day yay let me know what you think, still unedited. I will get around to it eventually :D any way enjoy

I have tried to steer clear of Brooks for the past week, but he is making it awfully hard for me. It was 5 in the morning I just couldn't find the energy to face Brooks so I decided to jump out my window and go for a ride.
So in a sudden burst of energy I got up, PJ's and all and made for the window. All I can say was I'm glad that the house is single story, and I sprinted for the stables.
Puffing as I made my way to Denny's stable, I unlatched the door and grabbed hold of Denny's lead rope. I led him out. I tied his rope to the halter like reins and jumped on. No helmet, no saddle, no shoes and in my pyjamas but I didn't care I just needed to ride, just needed to clear my head.

In a swift kick we galloped out of the stables and cleared the house gate and made off through the paddock, to where? I wasn't sure but I just needed to be alone.

All to soon the sun came up, but we found a small clear pasture dotted with tuffs of fire weed. I dismounted and sat down. I let my make shift reins dangle around me feet, allowing Denny to graze around me, and I finally had time to realise what was happening to my life. It wasn't so much just falling apart, but just getting difficult. Going to America was a big turning point and loosing my parents was another, they are two really big things then loosing Josh was just enough to push me over the edge. I had never really had time to think it all through, I had always kept my self busy, so I didn't have to think.

Soon he laid down behind me with his head on my lap. In the past two week the bond we once had had grown, in to even more than we already had.

"Who needs men hey? when I have you Denny. I could be like the crazy cat lady but with horses. yep that would be me, the crazy horse lady," I said stroking Denny's face. He just huffed and looked at me with big eyes, almost knowingly. "I just cant do it, okay? so stop looking at me with those eyes, it wouldn't work between us. I just cant loose another person that I hold dear, it would just be to much for me to handle. I have become tougher, not as shy, and almost a leather skin. I have built up walls around me to protect my self, and when I'm with Brooks they just fall down and I feel venerable and I hate that feeling, it has put me in to many bad positions, and I don't need that. Lots happened to me in america, boy, stuff I do not want to repeat." I said staring out at the horizon, "but do not believe that I am a broken woman, cause I'm not." I said as rebel tears rolled down my face. I furiously whipped them away.

We sat in silence for a while. And I thought if any one saw me like this, tear stained cheeks, Pyjamas covered in mud, bed hair and telling all my problems to my horse, they would put in in a mental asylum.
Soon I looked down at my clock and saw it was almost 10.
Whipping the tears away from my face, I sniffled, "Come on boy lets go home."

Denny nodded his head in the most comical way it made me smile. I mounted and we galloped home. The wind blew out my hair, possibly notting it even more and the ground seemed to disappear and it felt although we were flying. Humans are to difficult. I have always preferred animals over human company, and I think I always will, its just the way I am.

We came with in a 50 meters of the house yard and we aimed for the house gate to jump over again. We made it to a few meters to the gate when I looked over to the lawn in front of the house and I could have sworn that I saw Josh standing with the wheel barrow and those wrangler jeans that he wore so well.

I suddenly lost my grip on Denny and slipped as we saw over the house gate. I landed head first onto the gravel and I instantly felt the blood pore, Denny landed narrowly missing my head. Then I heard shouting, then snorting as Denny positioned him self protectively over the top of me. Then my vision went hazy.

Suddenly denny was away and I was being picked up in strong familiar arms, "Come on Aud, stay with me,"

"No Josh just let me sleep," I murmured, my eyes felt heavy and my head hurt.

"Who's jos- don't even worry, we've just got to worry bout you staying awake okay?" said Josh.

"No Josh just let me sleep, I need to be rested for the big Rodeo tomorrow! and you should be to you have a big ride, just let me sleep," I said my hand hitting him in the face.

"Audrey, look at me, I'm Brooks not Josh, please just look at me, please," his voice seamed to break.

Then my brain snapped, It was Brooks, Josh was gone and I was never going to see him again. It was Brooks on the lawn not Josh. My heart was breaking al over again.
"He's gone," I cried into Brooks shoulder, "another person I love is gone."