Snowflake /Pjm jjk

❄️ Part fourty

27 August 2020
Jungkook's pov

I knock at her hotel door waiting for her to open.

"Who is it?" She yelled from the inside which made my heart stop.

"Jungkook" I yell back, she soon opens the door smiling at me.

"I brought some food and snacks" I said going inside her room putting the bags down at the table.

"I'm so hungry" she answer walking towards me and takes the food out of the bags, we grab some food and sat down on her bed.

"This taste so good" she mumbled with a mouth full, I laughed at her and almost chocked from the food in my mouth.

We both kept eating in silent, I look over at her time to time, but never once did she look at me. I felt my heart clench as I feel guilt eating me up on the inside and sweat is starting to form on my forehead, I stopped eating and looks at her.

"I'm so sorry for last night." I stared intensely at her trying to read her but couldn't tell what she was thinking.

"It's okey" she said looking back at me with a sad smile, I felt my heart clench harder and I want to throw up the food I just had eaten.

"I'm so sorry for touching you like that, I shouldn't have done it" I said trying to make eye contact but couldn't get a chance as she's  looking down, my eyes widen when I see her blush.

"It's okey, Jungkook! Don't worry about it." She said smilingly while she is playing around with her food.

Why is she blushing? Did she like it?
She said she likes me being dominant over her, did I really turn her on last night?

I had to get it out of my chest, I can't lie to her anymore even though it will put me in a bad light she deserves the truth.

"I let someone suck me off last night" I blurted out making her a little startled from my sudden outburst.

"I'm so sorry Victoria. I don't know why I did it and I hate my self for doing it, but I felt so hurt and wanted to move on" I whisper and she looks at me with big eyes and starts to giggle.

"Jungkook!"

"I know that I should never have done it but look at me Victoria, I'm a mess. I couldn't even get hard from her touch, because she wasn't you." I said the last part with a low voice and felt a tear running down my cheek knowing that I have hurt her again.

She grabbed our food and put in on the nightstand before turning back towards me to look into my teary eyes.

"I already know" she said which made my heart break.

"What?!" I stuttered out looking at her, why isn't she mad?

"You told me about it last night and I am not mad at you, who would I be if I would blame you after I kissed Jimin?" She said which made my tears run down faster.
How can this girl be so amazing.

"I'm not mad at you for kissing him, I know you have to find out your feelings and I am sorry for not understanding that earlier" I said before laying my hand carefully on hers, a little afraid on how she will react from my touch.

"Thank you" she said smiling while her tears run down her face as well and I cup her cheeks before wiping her tears away.
I kiss her forehead afraid to going over the line if I kiss her lips.

"I'm sorry for hurting you Jungkook" she says which made my heart clench and I felt my self feeling bad.

"Don't be, I'm the bad guy here. I made a big mistake by putting you in this situation. Take your time and find out your feelings, when you do I'll respect you choice no matter what it is" I said while stroking her hair.
Her light blond hair is feeling like silk under my fingers.