Help Me Fix My Broken Wings

Who she really was.

It was this day. The day he lost her. He was pulling grasses around the tombstone of her dear one. "How have you been? It's been a year heh." 

RIP

Jessica Jung

1994 - 2012

A wonderful daughter and friend

"I miss you." He faintly smiled. "I've got a confession to make Jess, I think I broke my promise, the feeling I felt when we were together. I'm feeling it again, to someone else, she's really pretty and all. You'll forgive me right? Now that I think about it I'm really stupid in love y'know, now it's someone crazy, and wants to kill herself. First someone with leukemia, now someone who have suicidal tendencies" He shook his head while chuckling. "I wish you are here so you can guide me to the right path just like you always did."

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FLASHBACK

"Ouch"

"I'm sorry, miss"

She struggled to stand up and then he decided to just help her despite the situation.

"I really need to go"

"YAH~" A man in a black suit shouted at him. "Come back here you brat!"

"Not a chance." He smiled "I'll come back here tomorrow, see you pretty kid"

A day has passed, months, a year, they always see each other in that meeting place. That is where he confessed his love for her, that is where she said yes to him, that is where they had their first kiss, in that crowd less intersection they always meet.

"Oppa, I'm lonely"

"Let me take you to a peaceful place where I always feel okay" He held her hands and ran to the hospital, took the elevator to the rooftop.

"Wow, it's beautiful here."

"It's pretty isn't it? But you're so much prettier"

".."

"I'm happy, Jess. I'm happy I met someone like you"

"Don't be" She started to sob.

"Why are you crying" He hugged her immediately

"I'm sad, because I will make you sad"

"I don't understand"

"I'll die"

"What?" He made her look at him "What are you talking about?"

"I have leukemia. I'll see mom and dad now. But what about you."

"Let's just spend the remaining days together" He sucked up the tears and kissed her softly. "I love you Jessica"

"I love you too" They watched the sun set.

February 16, 2012, She died at noon with him holding his hand, smiling beautifully uttering "thank you, don't cry" he didn't cry because it will make her sad. She closed her eyes being one with the wind, she left him in this cruel world.

He now started to cry, he cried and cried, the first time he cried so hard, he remembered how she always act like the older one despite being older for 3 years. How she tells him to be always positive and life is always beautiful no matter how hard it is. How she tells him to stop smoking, and making him stop because that's how much he loves her. The way she helped his mother making those stupid bead accessories and singing songs while doing it. He was crying nonstop while all of those wonderful moments dawn up at him, realizing that it will never happen again. He promised herself that he will never fall in love again like he did with Jessica, no on can fill the void she left behind.

Her relatives set up a decent wake and buried her into a decent garden that is fortunately accesible to him. He always visits her, once a month, to tell her her problems, wishing that she will answer.

FLASHBACK ENDS

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The sun has set the moon is already peeking through the clouds. "Dang it, I didn't had the chance to visit her today. Well, you're still more special than anyone else Jess." He chuckled. "I need to go home, Mom is waiting. I love you. Bye." He kissed his palm and planted it in the tombstone and hurriedly he bought dinner and went home.

"Where have you been? You visited Jessica?"

"Yes mom. It's her 1st year death anniversary"

"Oh I see. You should've told me. I should've gone with you." She smiled. "Have you found a replacement for her?" She asked in a teasing manner.

"Shut up mom."

She laughed. "Nowadays your behaving like how you behave a year ago.

"Just shut up, and let's eat."

"If you say so."

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 A special participation of Jessica from SNSD. =)