all my life i've been on my own
i use a light to guide me home
but now together we're alone
and there's no other place i'd ever wanna go
stockholm syndrome; one direction.
✿ luke ✿
luke got home from school and he was getting so used to things. he has things in his life that changed him from just existing to actually living. he has things in his life that he has control over. he gets to choose to go to school. he gets to choose to be with calum. it feels good to have consistency.
"how was class?" calum asks from where he stands on his front porch.
"it was good," luke replies. "learned some things."
he climbs the stairs to calum's porch and they go inside. they're neighbours and they're sort of dating and neither of them have any family, so there's nothing really stopping them from spending all of their time at each other's houses.
"want any thing?" calum asks. "coffee? tea? hot chocolate? you want tea."
"stop it, i can make it myself!" luke pleads.
"yeah, but i can also make it, so i will. any word from your dad? a christmas card or any thing?"
"no, but it's only the eleventh," luke says, following calum out to the kitchen where he begins to prepare the tea. luke sits on a stool and watches him.
christmas is coming right around the corner and usually luke is not fond of the season, but this year he has calum, and calum is a lot more cheerful than his mother. luke is going to have a wonderful christmas. especially because he just remembered that ashton called him.
"calum! big news!" he shouts.
calum grins and hands luke his tea. "yes?"
"one of my friends, ashton, from london, he called! he's coming for christmas!"
"that's great, luke! when's he coming?"
"really soon, he said. like, sometime next week. i told him about you, he's excited to meet you," luke says.
"as long as he doesn't try to steal my man, i'll get along fine with him," calum jokes.
luke rolls his eyes. "he won't. i know i made it seem like there was no one there for me, but there was always ashton. i didn't ever want to talk about him because i wasn't sure if i'd ever see him again."
calum grabs luke's hand, and luke stands up from his seat at the island. they walk back to the living room and cuddle up together on the couch bed.
luke and calum stare at each other for a long time after they're settled. calum makes luke think of making paper snowflakes, and breathing on windows and making them fog up and drawing smiley faces, and drinking water after a work out, and planting flowers and sitting back and admiring a job well done, and all things good.
just like the flowers, calum will leave, too.
calum won't leave. he can't leave.
he said himself that he might flake out.
things are going far too well for calum to leave.
"hey, luke, what's wrong?" calum asks. "you looked so warm and then suddenly you got kind of...terrified."
"you're not going to leave, are you?" luke asks like little shards of glass under his skin.
calum smiles reassuringly. "of course not, luke."
luke smiles, too (even if it's not very believable) and curls up beside calum and lays his head on his chest.
luke's favourite thing is the sound of calum's heart. it thumps and gives his chest a hollow sound and it's so soothing and also exciting and so scary. to hear calum's heart beneath his own is thrilling and terrifying all at once.
"i wouldn't dream of letting you go," calum whispers to him.
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they nap on the couch and it's really just what luke needed. his first thought is that hey, he didn't cry earlier. his second thought is that calum's shirt is damp and his third thought is that he cried during sleep.
"you were sniffling all night and it killed me, honey," calum, who is already awake, tells him.
"i'm sorry," luke mumbles.
"i swear to God, luke, if you apologise one more time for some thing that's not your fault-"
"i'm sorry," he says again. but that time it is his fault, because he said sorry before and it made calum mad.
"hey, luke, i'm not mad. i just- you never see yourself like i do. you don't need to apologise for crying. it's okay, it was involuntary, you were asleep."
"i know. i just feel bad for worrying you."
"i worry because i care," calum says. "i'll always care."
luke looks very endearingly at calum and then his smile grows when he thinks about christmas coming.
"you're very cute when you're happy," calum tells him.
still every time calum compliments him, luke has relentless hot and cold shivers up and down his body. he assumes that's a good thing. it makes him feel very alive, which he didn't feel for the year he was alone.
"i'm really thankful for you, you know," luke says, "because of all the time i spent aching all alone. now if i ache, i can ache with some one."
"when you ache, which we're hoping becomes very uncommon."
luke just stays laying with calum and sighs contentedly. he's just really grateful and so excited and happy. he wonders where happiness was when he needed it the most, but he dismisses it because that was then, this is now, and he can't dwell on the past.
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ayyyyyye chapter 11! what do you think about luke trying to get away from all the shit??
what do you think about calum going in between very worried and sketchy about the relationship and then being very headstrong about staying with luke?
well i sure as hell hope you liked it because it would suck if you didn't :/
yeah also please vote and comment? it's a big boost of confidence when ya do and it makes me feel bad to see that some chapters have like 50 reads and only like 2 votes and 4 comments but half of the comments are from myself. yeah so that would be cool if you wanted to vote :-)
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