She's lost In A Sea Of Poetry

JJ

You can't stand to leave my life because you still love me, but you also can't stand to stay and commit to me, and give me more than a friendship because you've hurt me so many times already and you're afraid you'd only hurt me again and you're not ready for commitment. And I, I have no idea how I feel about any of it anymore. I love you. But as much as I love you and wish it could work, I can't see this working. You're not ready to settle down,you're not ready to be in a relationship. You want to travel, you want to make a living for yourself and you are still figuring out your own life. You know you couldn't commit to me even if you wanted, or you're afraid you wouldn't be able to.  And as much as I loved to say fuck it, to tell you your wrong or that I don't give a damn if you hurt me again, I've been hurt so much recently that I think I need some time to myself. And there comes a time where you wonder how much more of yourself you can give someone else. I love you and on one hand I don't wanna move on. On one hand I don't want you to leave. I want to open my heart and my arms and my life to you and give you yet another chance to break because I love you and I want you and I care about you and I think I'll love you for the rest of time,I really do. But at some point you just have to stop. I don't know what I want anymore. What's meant to happen,or anything..the only thing I know is that I love you and I have to trust that what is meant to happen will. I have to trust it'll all  work it's self out with time sooner or later. That I'll end up where I'm meant and you will too and that may not be with each other, and that kind of hurts, but I've accepted it. I don't what to do. All I can do and know to do is to give it to god. what's meant to be will find a way.