Dear Ajay,
Social media, messages, I really am not into this. The only people I'm good at talking are the people who love me no matter how much of a nutjob I am. Not because I am prude, but because I'm scared. What if I irritated you too much? What if I am becoming a drama queen? What if I'm becoming too much of a geek? I must admit. I don't know how to talk to people.
You were different. When it came to you, I was ready. I wasn't scared. Still, I was a coward when it came to taking the first step.
I still remember the day you first messaged me. It was one of the happiest days of my life. I was smiling like crazy. Every time you messaged I was waiting to reply. I was such a night owl and I liked talking at night. You were such an early bird. Still talking to you was, still is one of my favorite things in the world to do. I always waited for your texts...
I always enjoyed the time I had with you, even if it was a bit short for my liking.
Did I reply too fast? Was I boring not being a contest?
I don't know. But it didn't matter. I couldn't help it. When I was talking to you, I was happy. When I saw your message, I was happy. When I thought about you, a smile lit my lips and warmth spread all over my body. So nothing mattered. The whole world could be judging me and still, I didn't care. But the world didn't know about you. You were my secret. You are my Happy Place.
Love,
Jaan
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