Confused Heart

Chapter 1

Kara Michelson

   I'm currently standing in front of the altar my hands being held by drew also known as Andrew, I took a peek of his face from under my veil and gosh he looks so handsome in that black suit that hug his muscles perfectly, I shifted my gaze to his face and look into his bluish grey eyes it held a look I have never seen before, it looked as if it was holding an emotion I looked away from his eyes and took a better look of his face his sharp jawline, his perfect eyebrows and his wonderful raven hair I love to touch so much was gelled back , no wonder his face was slightly different today it was gelled, he never gelled it, his hair was always messy but in a sexy way. Don't take me wrong I don't love him but it's difficult to not notice his good looks puberty hit him hard, but I'm just sad he had to be getting married to me I wish he could get married for love , we both don't love each other and it's really difficult to be standing here today, trust me I had thrown tantrums, cried my eyes out telling my parents I only see him as my best friend and nothing else, he on the other hand tried so many things too to stop the wedding but all seemed futile as our parents kept saying we will learn to love one one another romantically when we are married. But I made plan B which is going to happen very soon.

Earlier that day......
  I stood in front of the mirror of the room I was staying in after finishing my make up and whoa, is this me? I looked more beautiful thanks to the make up artist who left not quite long ago the smoky eyeshadow, to my long lashes coated with mascara, my long wavy blonde hair was packed into a bun with decorative pins adorning it, I picked the diamond studded earring and put it on, it complemented my dress perfectly, I wish I was this dressed up on a better circumstance

"Hey beautiful bride" said my sister, did I mention I had a  younger sister uhh completely slipped my mind, our parents gave birth to only the both us

"Where have you been, you went out for so long" I said acting annoyed

"I've only gone out for five minutes not ten hours " she said smiling like an idiot, she is my female best friend and we are like the three musketeers including drew, I'm so glad I have her as my sister she is so full of life and so am I , which means our combination is bad and fun at the same time

"Watheves" I replied smugly

"It's time to put your dress on" she said while walking to the direction it was hanged, and gestured for me to stand up, I did as I was told as she helped me into the dress. It was a simple white colored Lacey dress that hugged my curves in the right places, it has a spaghetti strap with a sweetheart neckline not revealing too much of my cleavage which was perfect because i was going to enter the church and it ended in an fish tail that was sweeping the floor .

"OMG, Kara you look stunning you really are a good designer " yeah you heard right, I'm a designer and I made the dress myself

"Thanks, and yes I know I'm a good designer, you don't look bad yourself and ah! that reminds me I made your dress" she was putting on a baby pink bridesmaid dress

"Okay okay, enough of the bluffing, you are not happy with this wedding the sadness is evident on your face I told you to run away but you didn't listen to me now you are marrying the person you don't have feelings for, our parents are so annoying just because he is your friend doesn't mean you can marry him" she said concerned with hint of pity in her eyes , my walls of tears wanted to collapse again and I have tried so hard to build it so it won't ruin my makeup but this silly girl is making me emotional

"True I'm not happy but if that's what our parents wants I will have to do it, and don't you dare make me cry and ruin my makeup, if you don't want me looking like a zombie" I said trying to lighten the mood, she was give about to me a comeback when we heard someone knocking at the door

"Sweetie are you ready yet it's almost time, 15 more minutes" said the annoying voice of my dad, don't get me wrong I don't hate my dad I'm just annoyed with him and mom, nonetheless i still love them wholeheartedly

"You guys can come in" I said

"Oh my God sweetie, you look like a goddess right now" my mom said her eyes glossy

"Come on mom don't cry, if you cry I'll cry too"

"I'm so proud to be your dad, both of you he said pulling me and Karen(my sister)to his warm embrace, the both of you look so beautiful " he said in admiration

"Thanks dad, we are also proud to be your daughter " I said

"I don't wish to ruin the father and daughters moment but we are running late" mom said interrupting our little moment

"Oh yeah mom, we are ready but before we go let's take some pictures shall we?" Karen said

"Sure and by the way mom you look hot" I said and Karen nodded her head in approval of what I said, my mom was putting on a long grey colored satin dress with a pair of dangling diamond earrings, simple and chic

"Thanks sweetie"

"Hey, what about me "my dad asked

"Well you look the same as you always do sutish and boring " I said and we all bursted out laughing well except dad, " ok fine, dad you look handsome, happy?"

"That's more like it" he said feeling proud

We took pictures and headed out to the church which wasn't a long distance, cause I was staying in one of the rooms owned by the church. On getting to the entrance of the church, I was given my bouquet and the veil was placed over my face

"Are you ready?" My dad asked

"Yeah" I'm so not ready I'm a nervous wreck , right now I  really don't want to get married to him but I have no choice unless I go with plan B. With that being said my dad interlocked our elbows together ready to go, my mom had gone in earlier and now Karen is following closely behind me , the door to the church was opened and the song for welcoming the bride started playing, everyone in the church stood up and then I saw him standing beside the priest with his best man behind him, in no time I was already in front of him and this led to where we are now.

I was interrupted from my thoughts when the priest started saying the vows

"Do you Andrew Joel Smith take Kara Elizabeth Michelson to be your lawfully wedded wife to love and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer and for poorer till death do you part"
It took a while before drew spoke
"I do" said his loud deep voice

"Do you Kara Elizabeth Michelson take Andrew Joel Smith to be your lawfully wedded husband to love and to hold, in sickness and in health, for richer for poorer till do you part"
Immediately those words left the priest's mouth tears stung my eyes, I looked around the church and I saw my mom and dad looking at me hopefully and Drew's parents with the same look, our parents business associates were also seated my employees everyone was waiting for an answer I looked at Karen's face and she gave me the do what is right look then finally at Drew's face i saw a bit of emotion flash through it and immediately it was gone like it was never there. What I'm about to do is for our own good

"I do....not" I said and threw my bouquet to the side yanked the veil off my hair
" I can't do this , this is not the type of life I want , marrying someone I don't love,I'm sorry " I said loud enough for everyone to hear with tears now streaming down my face I'm sure I look like a zombie now, that being said I ran out of the church not caring to spare a glance at my family.

A/N
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