Downward Spiral (Izuocha)

Chapter 18 Please, let me help

Uraraka P.O.V.

Lunch arrived and I told Iida to go ahead, as I noticed that my handsome green haired friend spaced out a long time ago during class, and he was only brought back by the bell, but he returned to the previous state he was in after a few seconds. He had a frown plastered over his usual smile and seemed out of character, even more so than how he was a few days prior, and even when I walked up to him, I couldn't help but worry even more. "Hey, Deku..." I touched his shoulder while trailing off and he let out a small squeak in surprise and as he saw me, I could see a hint of fear in him, but I didn't understand the reason for it. He then sighed in relief, as if he were expecting something awful to happen to him, but continued to pack his bag.

"Yeah Uraraka? What's up?" He didn't look at me, nor in my general direction, as he was clearly avoiding me for some strange reason, and he has yet to realize that it is lunch time. "Deku, it's time for lunch, let's go to the cafeteria and eat, ok?" I asked, remembering that he had started to eat less, but still retained his muscle mass throughout his body, but his cheeks that used to hold some baby fat looked a tad more slim than usual, but of course, he just went back to that smile he can pull of so easily and finally looked at me. "Sure, I am a bit hungry." and as he stood up, I remembered that I hadn't asked for the reason behind his daydreaming in class, and I was very intrigued to understand.

"So Deku-kun, what got your attention away from class? You are normally the one who scribbles his notes at lightning speed." "I...um...w-well, you see, I a-am just tired f-from training. That's all." I wasn't convinced, although his stuttering would be normal in certain situations, we had been around each other so often that he went past that with me, but if it were another girl, I would understand. Even if it was the lamest excuse I heard, even if he did train religiously, I just nodded and continued my walk with him down the hallways towards the cafeteria as it wasn't my place to be snooping on his personal business. I didn't enjoy the silence that came after, but I was getting nervous that I would say something stupid and scare him away, even if he now sported a neutral look, but I was comforted with asking him something that had burned my mind since the day we started at this school.

Midoriya P.O.V.

"Do you think we could eat at the roof Deku? It would be fun." She stated, breaking the block of uncomfortable ice that we were currently holding. "I heard its closed during these hours because some three friends in the past used to be there all the time." I replied with the urban legend that Mirio had told me once that I had asked him the same out of curiosity, but no one knew the identity of those three. I was honestly considering my options with what to do in this situation after that, I didn't feel like eating, and I was just worrying and being a burden to Uraraka, something that was stuck in my head due to the dream I had last night. It had felt so vivid that I could be expecting at any point that any of my classmates jumps at me with the same killer intent, especially Kacchan. 

We arrived to the table with Iida, Todoroki and now a regular Yaoyorozu to join us for lunch, and me with a sorry excuse of a meal for a sorry excuse of a hero. Uraraka instantly joined the small talk happening at the table with Iida and Yaoyorozu as they agreed on many things while Uraraka would tease them constantly for being to serious, especially the robotic class president. Todoroki and I just sat in silence as he usually did, and me sometimes joining in to the laughs of Uraraka that reminded me why she was so cute. However, it all changed drastically when I had finished my food and my eyes started to feel heavier by the second, cancelling all sound around me and looking out the window to my right, only to be brought back by the least expected person that was sitting with us.

"ryia.... oriya..... Midoriya!" shouted my double color haired friend, bringing me back to reality after becoming a total stranger to everything and anyone. "Huh? Sorry guys, I'm just tired tha-" "Midoriya, is everything alright?" Todoroki cut me off with his monotone voice. It startled me for sure, especially coming from someone as reserved as he is. "Yeah, of course!" I exclaimed, showing off the fake smile that I had mastered over the years, even if I hadn't used it in a while, the reflex was still there for whenever my mother would ask the same question. "Midoriya, remeber we are your friends, just like you told me." now it was Iida making a statement as he recalled my words back then before the internship, and used my own words against me. Uraraka didn't join in, but I was sure that she had the same worried look that everyone at the table, even Yaoyorozu, who I didn't really talk too much and the most time we interacted was saving Bakugo from All for One.

"Guys, I'll tell you. Don't worry, everything is fine." and with that, everyone went back to their food, but I knew that none of them seemed convinced, especially Iida who kept one of his eyebrows raised and was sometimes throwing glances at me. "Um, excuse me." I said as I stood up and took my tray and by garbage, even if I would normally wait for them I understood that what I had heard last night was really true, as if I stayed, I would only worry them and become more of a burden to them, and because of this, I decided that I would avoid them as most as I could without being rude. This way, I wouldn't be a weight on their back, and cause less trouble  to them, I would just go back to how I was back before I met All Might, being once again quirkless and useless, never really leaving that part of my life, as it was all seemed an illusion. 

Heyoo. Guess who's back? Yeah, my timetable should allow me to post Friday, Saturday and Sunday, with maybe some Tuesdays or Thursdays. I'm glad I am back, and I really missed this. Also, this fanfic should last at least 50 chapters, so don't worry, and I'll be sure to finish it. Remember you are all amazing, loved and cherished. I will be seeing you tomorrow, and I hope you all have and had a good day,