Alpha And Her Human Mate

Chapter 42.1

We excused ourselves and walk back home. Home, I haven't been there for so long. You never realized the value of home until you're forced to leave it. We walked back holding hands and only stopped at my room's gate. So, he was staying in my room. Sweet.

"Uhh..I stayed here because I felt less lonely in your room. Hope you don't mind."

I didn't reply to that, but instead pulled him in and closed the door and lead him to the bed. We sat down facing each other still holding hands and I can see the previous insecurities and fear not only in his eyes but also in his body posture. Just what made him this insecure of our relation, but if he is feeling this way then I'm at fault. Somehow, I made him feel unsure about us and that's not okay and I need to fix it as soon as possible. The special someone in my head is also yelling me to do so.

"Cut the crap Eddy, mate needs us now. And he is most important right now. We can continue our bickering some other time."

"Good point. Flicker, you're getting smarter. Sorry I'll focus."

"Baby you remember you promised me a talk. Well now is the time for you to explain me that sorry."

"I remember, we were in the middle of something which we had to stop because of family time. Well, we could pick from where we left it in then."

"Hold your horses mister. You know very well what I'm talking about. Adrian baby I know there is something bothering you and I want to fix it for you. I cannot see you in this pain but I can't do anything if you don't tell me what is wrong. Please baby. Please tell me what happen?"

"Sorry.... I'm really really sorry. I know.....I....I'm not perfect for you. Hell, I had known that from the very first day. I knew that I'm not good enough for you. But I still stayed because I am a shellfish person. I knew I could never find someone like you."

I stayed silent as I watch him struggled with words. I stayed still when tears start running down his eyes. I even stayed still when he pulled his hand away from my grasp. I thought that these past days were difficult but this, this does not compare to anything as I'm forced to watch my mate suffer. I had to watch him break down in front of me as he struggled to continue. But I need to stay still as I knew he need to get this all out of his system. If I want to mend this, us, I need full understanding of the situation. So, I let him his time, I let him build the courage to continue.

"I know I'm no match against werewolf and I know that I weaken you because of being a mere human in werewolf world. I was foolish to think that I could survive here, that I could run among the wolves as equal. And in my foolishness, I only managed to bring you down. You deserve someone better, someone strong who could stand beside you and fight beside you which I can't. But it's still not late you could still find someone, someone who is fit for you. You can reject me, I don't mind. And you don't even have to worry about pain cause I'm h.."

I knew I said that I would let him take his time and let him speak his mind. But there is no way I could let him finish this sentence. So, I shut him up with the only thing that came in my mind. I kissed him. I kissed him deep and slow till he calmed. He had frozen at the moment when our lips touched, I felt him relax in me as the kiss deepened so, I kept kissing him till his heartbeat evened out. I pulled away to look in his eyes they had some relief in them as he just dodged the bullet. I understand why he felt that he had to keep everything to himself, he just doesn't want to trouble anyone with his problems. After all, he had been living that way for so long, he couldn't share his problems with his family, he wanted to protect them from the world and doing that he must have started hiding problem from them. But he does not have to do that now, cause his troubles are not just his anymore, his troubles and burdens are mine too. I kissed his forehead and bring him in close embrace, maybe my heart beat could tell him what he meant to me. I hope he could feel it skip a beat just with his touch.

"How could I leave someone who is made just for me? How could I find someone better than you, when you are what I want? Now and always. And you know how I can be sure of that?" I paused to look in his eyes and watch him looking at me with hope in his eyes and I knew that I am on the right path, he is listening and soon he might accept the fact that I only want him.

 

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I'm having difficulty in writing this chapter so I thought to break it down in two parts. Hope you like it and I will upload next part of this chapter soon.