The Lost Lycan Princess

Chapter 31 - Darkness

"What the hell, can't you knock?"

Jacksons voice seemed to pull me out of the state of shock I was previously in for the past few seconds. My vision was blurred from tears as I blinked repeatedly, attempting to see cleary.

My heart stopped beating. Pain infilled by entire body as I stood in the same position at the door trying to comprehend if this was reality or just a really bad nightmare. It had to be a nightmare, my mind was telling me. But the pain in my heart and the lump in my throat proved opposite.

Is this how it felt to have your heart broken?

To have the one person you loved most in the entire world, you other half, to betray you?

At that exact moment, I didn't know what to feel. I didn't want to feel. I wanted to die. I wanted the ground to just open up and swallow me hold. I wanted to give in to death, the one thing I have been running from my hole life. I wanted to surrender.

Coming back to my senses, I couldn't stop the sob that escaped once more from my mouth. One hand was coming my mouth while the other was placed upon my chest in hope that by some miracle, it would stop the pain that was rising within me.

Jackson and Ashley never left the intimate position the were in. If anything, he was closer to her then before. The anger was evident in his face, no sign of any guilt or remorse. Ashley on the other hand layed with a victorious grin on her face as she looked directly at me, into my eyes.

"Jacky baby, tell her to leave" she said in a low seductive tone as she began to run her hand up and down his biceps. I was hoping at he would push her away, to tell her to get lost. To get down on his knees and beg for forgiveness. But to my sorrowful disappointment, he looked back at her and placed a kiss on her lips as he then turned back to me.

"J...Jackson?" I managed to choke out. I wasn't sure exactly what I was aiming for when I called him. Was it to get is attention or to ask in a silent way what the hell was going on.

"Get the fuck out and close the door. Can't you see I'm in the middle of something?" he shouted. His body began to tremble with anger, anger towards me. For interrupting them? For catching them in the act?

I felt something break inside me at his words. In that moment, I realised something. Something I never thought would be true. He didn't want me. He never did. All this time he wanted her. He was using me like a toy, a toy that a toddler would have interested in for 5 minutes and then throw away when something different came along. He never care about me. It was all an act. He didn't give a damn about that fact that I was his mate, his soulmate. That I was hopelessly in love with him, that I gave him my heart and soul only for him to crush his in the palm of his hand.

After a moment of realising that I was still standing at the door in state of shock, he glared at me once more.

"I'm not going to tell you again. Get the fuck out right now or else I'll rip that pretty little face of yours right off your body" his voice was cold and demanding. I never seen him act this way towards me, to ever threaten me. Not only was I a toy to him, but threatening me didn't seem to bother him in the slightest. His soul interest right now wasn't me or my feelings but her. The girl who was been trying so hard to break us apart. Well, this time she was successful.

Taking a deep breath, I didn't want to be here anymore. I wanted to get away. Not for a day, a week, a month. But for good. Where was I to go? Right now, that didn't bother me. The only thing that bothered me was being in the same house as them, as him.

Turning around, I ran as fast as possible out of the room and out the front door. I tried to call on my wolf to shift but she was gone. I couldn't feel her anymore. She disappeared the second I layed eyes on Jackson and his slut. I needed her so bad right now but she wasnt there. I was alone.