Hidden Love (Tronnor fanfiction)

~9~ Date

Troye's pov

Connor isn't in love with a girl? But I heard them say something like that. Okay I heard half of it so there is a chance I misinterpreted it completely. That doesn't change the fact that I'm going on a date though. I didn't even want to go on a date and especially not with Matthew. I only called him and agreed with it because I wanted to get over Connor but now I know he isn't in love with a girl I still have a tiny chance. Of course I've been so stupid to say they could go out too. What if he really finds someone? And I'm stuck with that Matthew guy. I was debating to call the date of but that would be rude. I just need to survive it and make the best of it I guess. Who knows maybe he's a nice guy and can we even keep contact you never know.

"You could wear the button up, he seemed to love it on you." I didn't even hear Connor coming in the room. He must've seen that I had trouble with choosing what to wear. It's just that I want to look good but not too good because I have no intentions with this date.
"Uh no rather not it's a special shirt. I just want something simple." A smile formed on his face and I couldn't help but smile too.
"I will help you choose."
"Thanks." He walked over to my suitcase and pulled out some clothes and laid them down on the bed. He looked so cute with that little frown on his face. He was so concentrated on the few clothes that were spread in front of him.
"You should take the grey shirt, it's simple so surely not too much for a first date but it also brings out your eye color. You should wear the jeans with it and not the black trousers. It will look better."
"Wow thank you Connor, I have no idea what I would do without you."
"Me neither."
"Where are you and Tyler going tonight?"
"Just the club a few streets from here, you know that one club were we once went to."
"Oh yeah, I remember. Have fun." I was still angry at myself because of this whole date and going out thing. If I didn't heard wrong things than this wouldn't be happening. It's not that there will happen something with Connor but I know how Tyler is and he will probably end up being drunk as always and Connor will have to take care of him. I just want to keep him company so that he's not alone with drunk Tyler. Okay maybe not only because of that, maybe it's also because I want to be with him but it doesn't matter since I'm on a date with Matthew.

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Connor left me at the restaurant where I was supposed to meet up with Matthew. He wanted to go eat something together and I never say no to food! Hell maybe he even pays for it. I'm still standing outside though, I don't really want to go in there but I have to. I opened the door and a women Immediately stood in front of me.
"Did you reserved sir?"
"Uh I was meeting someone here called Matthew Wilson."
"Oh right, he's waiting for you at the table right behind the corner." Okay I really didn't know this was such a fancy restaurant. If I knew this I would've worn something a little bit more chiquer. Why didn't Connor say it to me? He surely know this place since it's only a few streets away from his apartment. I didn't even focus on where I was walking until I noticed him sitting at a table, his back turned to me. I suddenly stopped with walking and that wasn't the best thin to do apparently. A waitress almost bumped into me and had to make weird moves to save the glasses from falling. She grumbled under her breath, annoyance showing but keeping herself in for scolding at me because that could cost her her job. I felt bad for stopping so abruptly in front of her but I just didn't know what to do. Do I just like walk over to him and sit down or do I first say hello. What am I supposed to say to him after that. I don't know a thing about him. Before I could think of other things I heard a chair moving and someone standing up. That someone was Matthew and I didn't even notice until he stood in front of me.
"Uh are you going to sit down with me?" This is officially super awkward. I know that if this was Connor he would make a joke about it that I just stood there and we would laugh with it. No, he just asked me if I'm going to sit down with him in a tone I didn't like. He almost looked annoyed with me for standing here, good luck that he didn't saw the waitress accident thing. I think he didn't even want to have a date anymore then. Okay maybe that would've been a good thing.

When we sat down at the table there was this awkward silence and I wanted to break it but I had no idea how so I was glad that he spoke up.
"So did you and your boyfriend break up?" Is this really the first questions he asks me. Well I mean the first one was actually the sitting down one but you know what I mean.
"Uh yeah we did." For a split second I wanted to tell him that we never were a couple and that we just pretended but that would be even more awkward then it already is here. I expected him to ask me why we broke up and stuff but he didn't. He clearly doesn't care about that and only cares if I'm single or not.

"What are you going to eat?" I didn't even look at the menu. I traced my eyes over the small letters on the paper in front of me and just said the first thing I saw.
"The spaghetti Bolognese" That probably wasn't the best choice as I noticed the look on his face.
"Really?! Are you a chi.. Uh never mind." I know he really thinks I'm weird now and that he probably never wants to see me again. Honestly, I don't care. I just want this to be over.

A few moments later we ordered our food and drinks. He ended up with some really fancy fish thing that had an even fancier name that I couldn't even pronounce. To my opinion it didn't look that good in contrast to my spaghetti. And my food was more than the double of his.
"Soo uhm Troye what do you think of kids?" I almost choked on my food when I heard what he said. Is he serious with this question? Does he mean it as a normal question or with meanings behind it for like future plans because I surely don't see him in my future.
"Uh...well I...want kids but definitely not now. It has to wait a couple more years at least and I first want to find a person who I love and settle down with him." This topic is really awkward to talk about with him. With Connor or Tyler I would joke about it and say something like I want ten and knowing Tyler he would say something like that too. I constantly compare Matthew with them and he just can't fit in with me. He's not the type of guy I spend time with and still I'm sitting here having awkward conversations with him.

After we finished our food we sat there again in that awkward silence. Now I was the one to break it.
"What are we going to do now?" I just prayed for him saying something like going home and just saying goodbye but he didn't.
"Maybe you can come to my house?" Nope, I'm definitely not going to his house. That's the last thing in the world that I would do.
"Uh I know this club only a few streets from here maybe we can go there?"
"Yeah okay sure." Yes! I just hope that I find Connor and Tyler there and get rid of him.

After we paid okay no he actually paid, we drove to the club and parked nearby. Waiting outside to get in. When we were at the point of going inside the security guy asked for my identity card to see if I was older than 18. I hate it that people always think I'm younger and looking at Matthew he almost looked embarrassed in my place. I don't know why he's embarrassed for this but oh well he will have his reasons I suppose.

When we walked inside I immediately felt the heat coming to me and the smell of sweating people and drank.
"Do you want a beer?" We weren't even a second inside. I planned on getting rid of him as soon as possible, I just had to find Connor and Tyler. I wasn't planning on drinking anything but I guess that one beer wouldn't hurt so I said yes.

I just kept standing where I stood. Leaning against a wall in the back of the club. At least here it wasn't as hectic. After a few minutes Matthew came back with two beers in his hands. He handed me one. I was looking around to see if I could find Connor and Tyler but no such luck. What if they didn't come? I decided to text one of them to see if they were here but right when I stretched out my arm to grab my phone I felt a pair of lips attach to mine. I couldn't think properly and just started to kiss back. This surely wasn't like me but it's not that I'm drunk. I just had one beer or did I had more as that? I can't even remember to be true. The only thing I was thinking right now was that someone is kissing me and I don't know who but opening my eyes would ruin the kiss. Even tough it was so heated and over the top that I don't think that it actually can be ruined. I just listened to what my body did rather than try to think about it. It's not that it matters anyway. It's just one of those heated kisses you see all the time in clubs. Maybe I'm not used to it but no one will find it weird here even though this isn't a gay club and I definitely was kissing a guy. That happens all the time in here I suppose.

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A/N

Hello guys! I'm actually proud of myself for updating in the week when I have school. I'm really tired now though maybe it's not the best idea to write this at almost 12.00 p.m. when I need to get up early for school but oh well I wanted to write something for you guys! I will probably upload this in the morning and not right now because I need the spelling corrector thingy on my computer.

BYE xxx
Marlies