A Man

DISTINCT

You have 5 missed calls from Jin*

Y/N: Hey. Is everything alright? 

He doesn’t reply

Y/N: Are the guys still coming over at yours. 

I could clearly see that this pabo was reading my messages but not once has he attempted to reply back. “Was he ignoring me? Did I do something wrong?” My thoughts began to disturb me “You know what if he thinks that I’m going to run after him he is wrong. You want to ignore me Jin, well two can play that game” I thought aloud.

I haven’t been in a relationship with Jin for that long. We were only together for three months. 

Sometimes, our differences pressured us into ending the relationship but I couldn’t let go of him. He’s like my own, personal brand of drug. 

I’m addicted to him, just the thought of inhaling his scent, touching him, let alone being with him drove me insane. By letting go of my addiction, I’ll be letting so much more go and to be honest I was not ready to let go. I stayed plastered to his couch hoping that he would get home quickly before the night creeps in, but just like my hope; daylight disappears and darkness rises along with a cold bitter rush of wind that engulfs me into isolation.

Soon the door opens, without having time to process what’s going on I jump up on my feet ready to hit him but instead I just stand there. He drags his feet heavily into the living room where no light is in sight. I only see the outline of him in the dark so I quickly turn on the lights. He stood in the same spot for at least a minute “Jin” I inaudibly say. I realised that he didn’t hear me so I stood in front of him and intertwine my fingers in his. He pulls back and acts as if I wasn’t there. Jin could ignore me all he wanted but sooner or later he was going to need me. 

To him, you are also an addiction, possibly very illegal but so desirable and irresistible. As mentioned earlier our differences caused many problems. We were A/D years apart and had different cultures and traditions. 

He turns his back to me and speaks “Where’s dinner? I’m hungry”

“I’m sorry, what?” I blink 

“I’m hungry.” He repeats. 

I reach his shoulder so that he would turn around 

“If you want to talk to me then face me. I find it very disrespectful to talk behind someone’s back” 

he finally looks at me but he’s unamused “Listen, I’m not in the mood to fuck about just give me the fucking food I’m fucking starving”

the annoyance in his voice rises, I was quite shocked hearing all the foul language that came out from his mouth and soon I became aggravated too 

“I’m not giving you shit until you grow some balls, sit down and talk to me” I point at the couch.

“You think that I’m not a grown man?” he smirks while sitting down on the couch and you take a seat next to him 

“Jin, honestly what’s up with you to-” “Why did you not reply to my calls?” He interrupts-

 I feel my cheeks getting hot “My phone was on silent I-” “Why was your phone on silent?”

Once again he interrupts me

“Because Jin, I was cooking and then I went to take a bath”

before he could say anything I say: 

“Do you expect me to electrocute myself just so you can scold me at the other end of the line” he opens his mouth to speak but I hold my index up to silence him

“You’ve done your interrogating, now it’s my turn.

Why the fuck are you ignoring me?” He looks down and mumbles 

“Because I’m not in the mood” I lift his chin up 

“So instead of talking about your problems you just decide to sulk like a hormonal teenager. You’re the adult in this relationship. Yet, why do I feel like I’m the adult? 

Why are you being like this?” He turns his face away from you.

“Are you sure you want to ignore me? Because two can play that game Kim Seokjin.

Finally, I have his full and utmost attention. 

He knew that when you called him by his full name is because you were on the verge of breaking up with him. 

As I stood up to leave he grasps my wrist tightly in order to restrain me from leaving. He throws me onto the couch and hovers on top of me. Without a word he readies himself by taking off his shirt and trousers off. 

This was a side to Jin that you rarely got to see considering he always let you do what you wanted but today he seemed determined to dominate. 

As he took off my t-shirt which revealed my bare breast under, he trails butterfly kisses along my jawline and collarbone all the way down to the space in between my breast. I moan quietly but loud enough for him to hear me..

“Sh!” He snaps at me and I bite down on my lower lip to hold back any sounds of pleasure which were urging to escape out of my mouth as I feel his soft, smooth fingers drawing circular motions on my clit.

Seeing me struggle to contain my pleasure only excited him even more, that’s when I notice the huge bulge growing in his boxers.

My instant reaction is to massage it until each ounce of oxygen inhaled and exhaled by him are audible. Except, for the first time ever Jin holds both of my hands in place, intertwining his fingers in mine and groaning

“No touching, "I’m in charge” at that point he takes off my knickers and his nails dig deep into my hips as his grip hardens on my waist

“You want a grown man? I’ll show you what a grown man can do.”