Unintentional//h.s

Chapter 1

**This is my first fanfiction. Hope you guys like it!**

        The wonderful smell of fresh cut grass tickles my nose as I gaze at the flowers painting the landscape wherever I look. The green leaves are dancing through the wind. I get chills as the wind caresses my cheek. I feel the cool wetness between my toes as I dangle my feet in the creek. The crystal clear waters looks so inviting. Just as I am about to jump in, I feel a tap on my shoulder. 

        I turn around and see my tall, gorgeous, blue eyed boyfriend. He picks me up and spins me. We both burst out laughing and fall to the ground. We just laid there staring at the sky and talking until the sun set. 

        "Renee." My mom said in her sweet voice. 

        I didn't know what was happening. I didn't know where I was. I looked around and realized what was going on. 

        I was in the hospital. Again. And that amazing dream was just that, a dream that would never be possible to me. I was a seventeen year old who should be shopping with her friends and going to the movies with her boyfriend but instead I was here for the second time this month for my breathing treatments. I've had cystic fibrosis for as long as I can remember. I was diagnosed when I was three years old; by the time I was four, my dad left us. He just couldn't handle taking care of an ill child and all the bills that came with it. I never really made any friends and kept to myself most of the time. 

        Breathing has becoming really hard for me lately so my mom took me to the hospital last night. The doctors did many tests and we're receiving the results later today. Part of me wanted the doctor to come back with bad news. This hospital has become my second home. One time I was here for five months. I don't want this to be my life. I just want all the pain to go away. 

      I look outside the door window and see my mom talking to the doctor. Her face dropped and drained of color. She blinked quickly to hide the tears that were about to well up and overflow, spilling out of her eyes. She leaned against the bland, white wall for support. I quickly went to the hospital bed and laid down, I already knew that the news bad. I silently cried to my self. I already regret what I thought about wanting to end the pain. All I wanted to do was push through the pain. I dried my eyes and took three deep breaths. I put in my headphones and went on Tumblr- aka my only escape.  

        My mom slowly came over and took out my headphones. She looked at me for a few seconds tears streaming down her face. 

        "Renee-" 

        "I know." Tears running down my eyes as I interrupt my mom.

        We both sat there, hugging each other as our tears mix together. Dr. Cole walked in to talk to me.

        "Renee, I'm sorry to tell you this, but your cystic fibrosis has become terminal. We can still experiment with different treatments. It cannot be cured by this stage but we can do things to try to mute the pain." Dr.Cole sympathetically said. 

        "No, I'm done trying different treatments. They never work, so what's the point? I knew this was going to happen. It was only a matter of time. How long do I have? Two, three months?" By this point I'm crying hysterically. 

        "Calm down, Renee. It'll be okay. Everything will be okay." Dr. Cole said with a smile and left the room.

        "Mom, how can she say I'll be okay? How can she walk away like nothing happened? I'm slowly dying. Everything will not be okay! I'm only seventeen, I shouldn't be experiencing this. I shouldn't be worrying about death. I shouldn't be in pain like this. Mom, just make it go away. Please, I can't do this anymore. How long do I have mom?" 

        "Shh baby." Her voice calms me down,  "Dr.Cole said you have until the end of this year but it's not a definite answer. You will make it through this. WE will make it through this. It's just another bump in the road that we will jump over." 

        I slowly fall asleep as my mom quietly sings to me while patting my back. I dream the same dream I did the night before. 

**I know this is kinda short but I will try to update regularly. Hope you enjoyed the first chapter!**