Just Like Small Doses

Chapter 12:let me down slowly

Sarawat broke as hell, even looking at his face made you pity him, there are large eye bags under his eyes, his hairs were in a total mess and he was wearing his casual clothes so carelessly that even his collar bone is visible so brightly, he was a kind of complete zombie now.
As Tine inspected the latter from head to toe, he was very well aware of his condition, and right now they were sitting inside the bar, where the latter just gulping bear one after another aimlessly.

Tine felt so bad for him, but all this time watt didn't allow anybody to come near him, except today when he called Tine to take him to the bar nearby, Since he can't drive back as he was completely wasted. Without second thought Tine accepted his request.

Now here are they, sitting inside the exclusive bar where a band is performing some kind of songs, Tine didn't bother Sarawat to stop since he knew what Sarawat was trying to do. So he just let him be doing whatever he wants, he was just glad to be with him in his bad days.

The band was playing a sad melody, when Sarawat noticed he headed directly towards them as he was trying to reach for the mic from the guitarist's hand, for a second I was in haze as I was trying to understand what he really wants to do, but then it clicked so I gesture heartbroken towards the guitarist who was shooing Sarawat away. As guitarist noticed me he looked back at Sarawat who was still staring at him with lost puppy eyes.

Ohh man it really sucks, without thinking much he pulled Sarawat on the stage as he gives him his mic and even offered him his guitar to play. Tine vowed at guitarist as they both were sitting in front of the table watching Sarawat start.

As Sarawat settle down on his chair, he started to strum the guitar with his eyes closed, and finally when he started all bar stayed froze as even dance floor music feels like turned off. There is only one voice which resembling the pain, too much of pain...........

Play let me down slowly by Alec Benjamin to feel the story!!!

This night is cold in a kingdom......
I can feel you fade away..........
From the kitchen to the bathroom sinking your steps keep me awake...........

Don't cut me down, through me out leave me in a waste
Coz once I m a man with dignity and grace
Now I m slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please,  please 
Could you find a way to let me down slowly,
A little sympathy I m hope you can show me,

After finishing the 1st stanza finally Sarawat opened his eyes, tears rolling down from his eyelids. Tine got an urge to go up and hug him tight but he stopped when he saw Sarawat was staring at him painfully as he continued his 2nd stanza............,

If you wanna go, then I'll be so lonely.....
If you leaving baby let me down slowly, let me down
Down, (×3)
Let me down, down
Let me, down
Let me down, down,
If you wanna go, then I'll be so lonely
If you leaving baby let me down slowly,

Sarawat wiped his tears, which blurring his vision as he closed his eyes again to start the next stanza....
Cold skin drags my feet on the trial as I m walking down the corridor.........
And you know we haven't talk in a while, so I m looking for an open door,

Don't cut me down, through me out leave me in a waste
Coz once I'm a man with dignity and grace
Now I m slipping through the cracks of your cold embrace
So please,  please 
Could you find a way to let me down slowly,
A little sympathy I m hope you can show me,

Tine was damn sure now and can say he was telling his story through this song, which hurts too much even his lyrics is something you can compare to his pain he was bearing right now. Even Tine can't able to control his tears as he saw Sarawat in his vulnerable state. As long as he listens to the words, he can feel the chills running down to his spin, he tried to swallow the lump formed in his throat as nothing come out expect he feels the urge to hug the latter tight into his arm and take away all his pain and sadness he was feeling right now.

If you wanna go, then I'll be so lonely
If you leaving baby let me down slowly, let me down
Down
Let me down, down
Let me down, down,

And I can't stop my self from falling,
And I can't stop my self from falling,

"I just never let you down Sarawat, I promise" Tine mumbled as he saw Sarawat was glaring at him as he was the only one there. He can feel Sarawat feelings, that he was showing through his music, the words can't be spoken can only come out by music in his case, and Tine felt little relieved that he finally did that, at least now he can feel a little bit relieved, the days he locks up himself inside, fighting to himself to forget about his girlfriend, finally paid off right now, right at the moment.

Down,
Could you find a way to let me down slowly,
A little sympathy I m hope you can show me,
If you wanna go, then I'll be so lonely
If you leaving baby let me down slowly, let me down slowly......!!!!

After finishing his song whole bar cried out with cues and loud applause, Sarawat gets off from the stage and Tine just couldn't help himself control his urge to hug him. As he did

He hugged Sarawat with all his might as tears are pooling from his eyes, but Sarawat didn't respond. Tine started to sob on the latter's shoulder, Sarawat couldn't help himself to stop anymore he melted in his embrace, he hugged him back tugging his face in the crook of Tine's neck, he cried and cried.....................

"I'll be always by your side Watt, remember when  I told you no matter where I go, I'll never leave your side you will never be alone............. I promise .......You had enough of your miseries now just put it to an end now ....." Tine whispered in Sarawat's ear who's was now sobbing quietly into never breaking the hug, the latter nodded lightly and clenched him more tightly as his life depends on him.

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