> 𝐏𝐑𝐄𝐒𝐄𝐍𝐂𝐄. • 𝗁𝖾 𝗑𝗂𝗇𝗅𝗈𝗇𝗀

𝐄𝐈𝐆𝐇𝐓

— 𝐗𝐈𝐍𝐋𝐎𝐍𝐆'𝐒 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕.

it's been four days that it's gone undiscussed, which is also probably the reason why her and i are more awkward than ever. we've managed to finish choreographing the dance together but there really has been no laughing and no teasing one another... it's just been doing what we had to do to finish the dance... is she maybe mad at me?

she is more straight forward with her words now and she really only speaks to mingrui which to be honest, hurts more than i thought.

i'm starting to think she's trying to forget about the thing. i guess you can say it's only a kiss... but not to me. that was more than "just a kiss" to me. something inside is telling me that i should regret it. like that kissing her was a mistake and created something bad, and honestly, i'm starting to believe it. what if she hates me now?

as i get into the vehicle on my way to where our recording of the dance will start, i feel my heart begin to race because of the nerves. i usually wouldn't feel this nervous, but i just don't want to mess up because of my feelings towards her... these past few practices i've been a little off.

but, as we arrive to the sight, everything seems to be fine. i try and forget my nerves to try and act like a professional would... i mean, i'm not saying i'm a professional but, to to at least act like a performer would before a recording.

and besides, the dance isn't too long, so there shouldn't be an issue, especially because we'll only have to do it two or three times... hopefully.

when we walk up this huge flight up stairs, we finally arrive to the rooftop where the recording would actually happen, and i notice that (y/n) isn't here yet. so, i sort of just stand around on my phone until finally the door opens and there she comes, which causes my to slip my phone back into my pocket.

as she walks towards me, holding onto her backpack straps, she almost has a confused look on her face.
"i thought it was suppose to rain tonight." she says. before i can respond, one of the people going to record it answers.
"we're gonna shoot the whole thing in the rain."
"really?" i then answer, then seeing the protective rain things for all the cameras and electronic, everything then making sense. he nods, and i turn to (y/n).
"i guess we're shooting it in the rain then."

"you'd think it would be spring with all this rain recently." (y/n) says before placing down her bag.
"yeah... it's strange."

as we just stand around for a bit not saying anything, we are then called to go get what we are going to wear on along with our hair and makeup done, which i'm assuming won't take that long because of the fact we're gonna apparently be dancing in the rain.

rain... is nice, i guess. all that i think about with rain now is what happened a few days ago. i just need to forget about that right now and do my best though... i can't screw this up.

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— 𝐘𝐎𝐔𝐑 𝐏.𝐎.𝐕.

he hates me. i already know it. he probably doesn't even want to think about what happened and is ignoring it. i mean, to him maybe it was just a kiss but for me, it really wasn't. it was so much more than just a kiss. it meant something because of the fact i could never share that with him again.

but, right now i just have to clear my head as we'd be recording soon. i've never really recorded with this many people watching... as i would typically just record things myself. but, whether i like it or not, i have to try my best to make things look like they're fine.