Newbie || ·Matthew Espinosa·

Chapter 15

Jess's P.O.V

"look at that." Zoe said beside me while we look down the window. "yeah, it's breath taking." I said looking at the front of the hotel get full of random fans. 

"Are you nervus?" Zoey asked me.

"Yeah I am, actually very." i said letting out a laugh. "don't worry everytings going to be awesome." 

"I hope so." I let out a big sigh getting away from the window, thoughts came runing in and out of my mind. positive and negative ones, I couldn't wait to see all of there face and finally meet them. tell them how much I love them. 

-Matthew's P.O.V- 

"Carter stop!" I yelled at Carter for him to stop tickling me. "Wake up! the show is about to begin!" soon my eyes opened fast, crap! I had totally forgot. I think I had got up too fast becaues I made Carter jump.

soon, I got in the shower to fresh up, as I got out and dried myself as I looked at myself in the mirror, out of nowhere she came into my mind and this has happened so miny times throw out these days, since I first seen her into airport. soon I felt a odd feeling coming throw my body, I bite my lip to contain the feeling that the thought of her was giving me. suddenly I let out a moan out of nowhere, I opened my eyes to see what the thought of her made my hand do unexpectingly. I sigh, did I just did, what I think I did? 

I looked down slowly, yup I did. I tired to clean as fast as I could before anyone could tell I was taking to long, I washed my hands quicky and put on my clothes. soon I got out and laid on the bed. what just happened?

- 

"Matthew can you pass me that." taylor said. I nodded and gave the water bottle you him. I didn't knew where my mind was at the moment, I just felt nothing. I didn't feel like feeling anything, I guess the fact that I just relized that I masterbated is really akward.

"Hey matt? you'er okay?" taylor soon said snaping me out of thoght. "Um, yeah. I just did get enough sleep I guess." he nodded and turn his head towards the entrance of the auditorium.

"ugh, how I hate that emo." I heard Taylor whisperd to himself but I could still hear him, I follow his stear and soon my eyes landed on Gummy. 

"What did you say?" I said out load. "I said I don't like that jessie girl." he said agian. why was Taylor acting this way? he really isn't like this. 

"What did she ever did to you?" then Taylor looked at me with the most serious face. "I just don't like her." and with that he got up an walked away. 

I really don't get why he doesn't like her? she's really cool actually, and beautiful, very talnted. soon the memory came into my head of what I had did this moring. Ugh! why. why. WHY! I had never in my life had done something like that, this girl just takes the beat out of me. I let out a laugh thinking about what I had just said in my mind. But I guess I just have to stay away as possible from Gummy, I just don't like the feeling she's giving me. 

"Ohh, is not your fault he'll come back." I quickly turn me head to see Gummy siting where Taylor was just sitting. "hum?" 

"Nothing, I was just joking." she said and smile, when she smile I felt something in my stomach, damn thoses feelings are coming back, and like I said before I don't like them. 

"ohh, ok." I said and she just nodded. we just sat there for a while in silence and it was akward. "So you needed something?" When I said that It came out pretty mean.

"huh? no I saw you pretty lonely, so I came to give you company." she said.

"Well, I don't need your company, I have friends you know, other friends that are friendly and friends that are always there." I said, I didn't even know what I had said right there, she just looked at me an nodded. 

"Well i'm sorry. I let you find your friends." she said but she didn't sounded annoyed mostly kinda happy. she got up and left to the back of the stage, well that was for the best Matthew. I felt kinda bad, why was I even being mean to her, ohh yeah because you masterbated matt, that's why. wow, I'm fucked up. 

soon the room started getting full of all of viners/youtubers they all started to get to there booth, and I got to mine which was the simple gray one that said Matthew writen with marker one a little sheet of paper. I sat down and wait for them to let the fans in. 

"Hey Matt have you seen Jess?" I turn to see Aaron beside me. "What makes you think I know?"

"Well you are always with her." he said. was that ture? am I always with her? 

"Well I don't."  

"Okay, I just wanted to tell her goodluck It's actually her first time performing." he said and walked away, I've never imagine it would be her first time, a smile creeped into my mouth just thinking that I'm going to see her first performance. 

-Jess's P.O.V- 

Shit, what if they don't like it? What if they make fun of me? no wait, What if something goes wrong? I can't take this presure. 

"Jess you'er going to be fine." Nash said beside. I'm thankful his being supportive and being by myside. "Thank you for being here and so supportive." I smiled as he gave me one back. "you're welcome." soon I felt him pull me into a hug, I guess I had no problem with so I hugged back. we pulled back slowly but he stopped when we were face to face, was he? no, No, NO! he was leaning in until I heard something hit the floor. 

we both turn to see Matthew standing there and a box on the floor, we both let go of each other. "Hey Matt." Nash said. I didn't even know what to say to Cheeks, all I was tring to be nice and make some company, but I guess that's what I get for being nice to a Person who doesn't deserve it.   

"Urr, hi." he said rubbing the back of his neck. "You needed something?" Nash said once again, I really didn't wanted to talk to him, I guess I was kinda upset he's been kinda mean to me, but I didn't care, I mean why would I?

"No, actually I came to tell Jess something." he said, leaving me surprised, Nash turn to look at me I nodded and he smiled telling him it was okay, he left and Matthew soon was in front of me. 

"So." was all he said. 

"What? you came to tell me another 'friendship' lesson?" I say sarcastically, he looked down and the looked into my eyes, I feel kinda akward when he does that.

"Look Gummy," and there goes the nick name again. "I didn't mean to be that rude back there."

"'That rude?' dude you was rude! but I don't care, we're not even friends so don't try to apologize because I don't care." with that I tried to turn but I felt him grad my hand and pulled me closer. "No, I am sorry, and I don't care if you don't see me as a friend or anything else, I came to wish you good luck so shut up and hug me!"

he pulled me into a tight hug, which couldn't let me breathe. "Matthew." I said but he didn't gave up. "Matt." he still did't let go. "Cheeks!" soon he relized that he was killing me and let go.

"Thanks, I guess I accept you apology." I said. "But, Why was you even being rude?" that's when his eyes got bigger. "I was just in a bad mood at that moment, no biggy. but I heard it's you first time performing in front of an audience."

"Yup."

"Are you nurves?"

"Yup."

"why are you answering 'yup' to everthing." I just shrugged my shoulders, as he looked at me.

"Do you like gummys." he asked.

"yup."

"Are you happy for tonight?"

"yup."

"Do you love me."

"yu- wait!" I said while he laughed. soon I heard screaming I'm guessing thoses were the fans that were coming in.

"You guys go to your staions, we're on in five min!" Mahogany said coming into the back stage and seeing us. both nodded and exit the backsatge. "Well, thanks for the aology and for the good luck." I said while walking to my staion. "

I walk, well ran, towards where Zoey was and all could here was screaming from the fans that where in line.