soobin sighs, staring at his figure with the mirror. he goes back to his book, trying to study but he feels too stressed. he wasn't stressed about the test that was coming up soon but was stressed because he knew he was yeonjun's second voice after beomgyu. soobin finally breaks down. yeonjun had always tried to steal beomgyu's heart but beomgyu always seemed to have a thing for taehyun. when yeonjun feels lonely, he first goes to beomgyu. if beomgyu is busy, he goes to soobin. soobin realized that he was yeonjun's midnight love a month ago but soobin's strong feelings for yeonjun mad ehim keep silent. soobin let yeonjun use his body for comfort. for not being lonely. for being the second choice that will always be there.
soobin shuts the book closed, throwing it somewhere across the room. the tall boy holds his head in frustration, sinking down on the floor while releasing sobs and cries." my poor heart." soobin said to himself." i'm sorry." the boy coughs out blood before throwing up petals. soobin gasped, scared for his life. he quickly took out his phone while searching up 'why am i throwing up petals'." hanahaki disease." soobin whispers to himself. he read that it fills out your lungs for being in a one-sided love relationship. he also read that flowers will start growing in your lungs which would render your breathing, eventually dying. he tried to find the cure but the only cure was to make your lover love you back. soobin groans loudly before losing his mind. his eyes became watery. he was having a sobbing breakdown but who wouldn't if they just read they'll most likely die in a matter of days or weeks.
soobin sat in class, nonchalantly. it's been four weeks since he knew about his disease. none of his friends know. none of them should know. in the matter of four weeks, he debuted as a leader of TXT alongside with yeonjun, beomgyu, taehyun and kai. he laid on kai's lap while faking a smile on live." well, that's it. bye bye." the boys waved goodbye to their fans that haven't been named yet.
it is now may of 2019 and soobin wasn't feeling very well. he was sweating more than usual on stage, feeling really tired. the concert finally ended and now the boys were going to get grocery." you four can go, i don't feel so well so i'll stay in the hotel." soobin waved goodbye. the four boys nod their head. soobin arrived inside his room. his knee felt weak. he kneels down before feeling his throat itchy. he coughed in pain, seeing pink petals covered in blood coming out of his mouth. soobin groans in pain before throwing up both blood and petals.
he gasped for air feeling that all the oxygen had left his body. he tried to get his phone but his whole body went limp on the puddle of blood. his eyes were teary yet lifeless. he wasn't blinking, nor moving, nor breathing. he stared at picture frame on the wall, lifeless. choi soobin, dead because of love, on may 18, 2019. all because he was only yeonjun's midnight love, or at least, that's what he thought.
