our time together was so brief
and my love and affection strong yet your absence cuts me so deep
everything now feels so wrong
for you I did something I'd never dare
As you were my partner in crime
I vowed to always take care
Guess I failed this time
I was sad, lonely and hurt
Keeping everyone happy was taking a toll
You were my salvation from this dearth
But little Sirus, you took a great fall
I try to be there for others
And make their day a little brighter
I try to never be a bother
And make their load a little lighter
But you were supposed to be freeing
Now I feel trapped by these gloomy clouds
The seasons in the sun I'd been dreaming
All engulfed by the silence that screams loud
The one week with you taht I had
Was everything I'd ever wanted
Even when you often drove me mad
My heart for once was sated
Even when the odds were against us love
I baked and cleaned for you with a smile
And all the hurdles we raised above
And the times we walked for miles
I was so excited to get you
And so disheartened when you were gone
You were the only friend that's true
And your absence has me shattered and torn
What did i do wrong?
I'm being eaten up by guilt
Why wasn't I the one with who you belonged?
My brain doesn't seem to quit.
Everyone thinks that I'm back to normal
But nobody seems to stop and look
That fake laugh you call phenomenal
Comes from a being that's shook
I can't mourn because I have to study
I can't cry because I have to be strong
I can't vent because I have no buddy
I can't go out because its now wrong
Trapped in this lockdown
With nobody to keep me company
Nobody has time to look into my frown
For they are all busy making a family.
I make jokes about him to cope
And make myself look hilarious
In reality I'm losing hope
And this sensation is nothing but serious
I see him every time I close my eyes
Unresponsive and convulsing
He was almost about to die
And I could hear my heart breaking
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How long does it take to get over depression . because I am in a terrible situation. I have to give an exam soon but I have absolutely no concentration. I don't feel like playing tennis, or studying. I just want to eat and sleep all day. I do sleep a lot now. From sleeping 6 hours a day I now sleep for 13 hours. Yet I wake up tired and achy. I dont have the guts to say that i can't do this anymore . Everyone would judge me and I am not ready for that. If you ate reading this then do me a favour and help me please. I need help and I am not strong enough to ask for it myself.
