Married To My Private School Teacher

Chapter 38

(A/N: Hi everyone, bit of a treat, I'm updating a bit early, only reason being that on Monday I was invited to go and see my Granddad tomorrow, he lives a couple of hours away from us and I rarely miss a chance to see him (he ain't getting any younger and we never know when will be the last time, although we hope not for several more years), so I'm a little unsure of when I'll be back, so I most likely won't get a chance to update this tomorrow as usual, so you get the update now instead! This chapter is focusing on Elliott, as we know, he's going through a little bit with regard to what's going on in his head, he's confused and doesn't know what to do, etc, so this chapter is going to be following him, I hope you like it! PLEASE do tell me what you think of it, it would mean a lot! Now for some not so great news, I haven't had time to write this week, so I have only got the next chapter written, I'm back at the thing of not being sure if I'll update next weekend, of course I hope to, but it depends on if I can get chapter 40 typed up.. also it is my birthday next Sunday too and I don't know what I'll be doing next weekend to celebrate, but the week after is when I'll have plenty of time to write, from the following weekend as I'm off work for like 9 days, so I will be working hard on this story, catching up with it properly, hopefully. Anyway, enough of me babbling, enjoy this chapter and I'll hopefully be back next weekend with the next one! Stay happy, stay safe. Laters :P)

Elliott's POV

"Babe, I'm off out for the day, I'm not sure when I'll be back" Morgan says as he sit at my kitchen counter, drinking my tea, looking on my laptop.

"Ok, let me know when you're planning on getting back" I say, distracted as my phone buzzes next to me. I look at it and see that Finn has text me.

"Some of the girls are hoping that I can meet up with them for a late night out" She says.

"That's fine with me, have a nice time" I say, barely paying attention as I read the text.

'I am always here for you, what ever happens, Eli x' It reads.

My head has been all over the place lately, since probably a few weeks before Alice and Jacob gave us all that scare, when in fact, they'd had a baby boy. Being at the hospital that day, all I wanted to do was be around Finn. Seeing Alice and Jacob so happy as a family unit, it's something that I have always dreamt of for myself.

I always thought I'd have that with Finn, then we ended our relationship, then when I found Morgan, such a beautiful woman, kind, funny, caring, loving, accepted me as I was and am, I convinced myself that she is the one for me, I could marry her and have kids with her.

But recently, I can't seem to be sure about anything, apart from work, god knows I love my job as a vet. It's the only thing I've ever wanted to do, since I was a kid. Saving animals, nursing them back to good health. Of course, it's not always a happy ending for the animals, or their families, and that's the hardest part of the job. But we do everything that we can for them, we make a difference, and that's what I love too.

I look back at my phone, at the text that Finn has sent. I just want to be with him, but Morgan is great, and I don't want to hurt her, she doesn't deserve that. Although my anger for Finn has gone, I just can't bring myself to be open about my feelings. It's depressing, but I don't know what to do.

"I'll see you later" Morgan says as she pecks me on the lips. "Love you baby" She says as she heads towards the door.

"You too" I say. Pretending to be distracted by my laptop, which has my work on the screen. I don't know the last time I actually told Morgan I love her, because I'm not sure I do, I'm not sure if I ever did. Perhaps I rushed into a new relationship desperate to move on from Finn.

Morgan has no idea of what is going through my head lately, Finn doesn't exactly know either, he just knows I'm confused and I guess somewhat depressed.