Calums P.O.V
"Calum can you please sing louder! We can barely hear you"
"Com'n mate give him a break mate, he's not having a good day" Ashton gave me a sympathetic look then turned his attention back too Matthew, our stage manager.
I sighed and nodded, even though he could see me I couldn't be bothered to speak.
After thirty more minuets, of me singing rather quietly, everyone just gave up.
We all went back to the dressing room and lounged around doing nothing.
We were all quite until Luke's voice broke the silence.
"Calum why are you like this. Why today?"
"Nobody can see me Luke. You don't know how it feels too be ignored by most of our fans. When I look out into the crowd it breaks my heart to think that most of them can't see me because they don't love me. Nobody loves me"
"Calum we can see you, because we all love you. Even though you have this condition nobody thinks any less of you. Your still the same boy you were seven years ago" he smiled and patted my shoulder.
I sighed not bothering too continue the conversation, when It was the same every time.
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I wish that I could wake up with amnesia,
and forget about these stupid little things
The lyrics echoed through the speakers, bouncing off each wall throughout the arena.
The words felt so raw and touching. I remember writing them earlier this year with Luke.
Neither of us had much experience of writing songs. It took us nearly three hours just too write the first verse.
All that hard work did pay off though. Amnesia is now one of our biggest hits, after she looks do perfect and don't stop of course.
At the time the lyrics didn't have much meaning behind them. But over time they seamed to branch out, each word forming a its own hidden meaning.
My eyes gazed across the arena, I felt like the luckiest person in the world. Every person here came too watch me and my best friends do something we love.
I was so grateful that I've spent the last few years of my life surrounded by people who care for me.
But time was running out...
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Sorry this chapter is short :(
I've been 'on and off' writing this for around three days. Nothing seamed to be going too great :/
But I've planned a few of the next chapters so hopefully I'll be more organised :)
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Erin xx
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Boy in the shadows - c.h
Фанфик"But there is nobody there?" "Only the ones who love him can see him" ... Since the age of twelve Calum Hood's life was turned upside down. With ten years to find love only one thing stands in his way...
