Downward Spiral (Izuocha)

Chapter 24 Unchanged

Into P.O.V.

It's been three days since Izuku came home and his daily routine has shown me that he is no longer training due to his determination. On the contrary, he has been stripped from it and seems to use the training All Might gave him as a distraction and disconnection from the rest of the world, and it is frustrating to see my own son go back to his old days that I thought he had put behind. He also takes too much time to get out of bed and still looks like a walking corpse, even if it is a slight bit better than when he first arrived. I understand he finds comfort in my company at least, and we make small talk and that seems to get him in a calmer mood, but when I asked how he felt, he just showed me a look that I dreaded for such a long time, the same smile he would give me back then as if nothing happened, but I can't help but wonder if now it has become more serious.

However, one thing that I wasn't expecting was the plans he told me he had made with his friends, and that got me wondering even more as it isn't that he doesn't have friends, but something much more obscure was bygoing through his mind to get him down while having people who support him. He even showed me that these were his friends thought the text, as a way to tell me that he would be okay, but his expression didn't show the reassurance that his actions did. I got up and made him breakfast as usual and waited for him to come out from his room, it was already quite late and I knew that by now he would be out any second, even if he would only eat a small amount, unless it was Katsudon like on the first day. He came out dragging his body once again, with a posture that could rival that of my father and looking as sluggish as ever, and I tried to change this and asked him what I could do but to no avail.

Izuku P.O.V.

Today was the day that we agreed to hang out and to be honest, I wasn't looking forward to it but not because of the people, but because of me. Being back with my mom actually made me realize that her love puts me at ease, but as soon as I am alone again, my mind wonders back to just how much of a failure I am, and every time she asks me how she can help it how I feel, I can't help but believe that I am a disappointment, and to make it worse, I'm his only child. I am far from what I should be to deserve the people around me. All I do is grow concern in them, meaning they are better off without me. That was the harsh truth that I finally understood within me, and the best way to describe myself now is useless, disappointment and embarrassment, all words that they used to describe me when I was quirkless, but I am sure that they saw past that.

I sat down and ate my breakfast that was set in front of me but couldn't bring myself to finish it due to the guilt. The guilt was the worse part, it felt so heavy. The guilt in my wrist, the guilt of my actions, the guilt of my thoughts, it was as if not only I was a burden, but had to live with a burden myself that I wasn't sure how much longer I could carry. I went back to take a shower and brush my teeth, as we agreed to be at the park before lunch so we can have fun, grab a bite and then just hang out, but I could already see how their worry could bring the entire plan down. I put on a pair of black jeans with a white shirt and a green hoodie on top so that no one would have to see my bandaged arms full of the scars that would emphasize on all my mistakes, yet three of them were different and held a truth I only knew, as if it was spelled in their fresh state. I sat down with my phone to kill time and relax by keeping myself distracted. Today can go so many different ways.

Uraraka P.O.V.

I was ready for today, already all dressed up and ready to head to the park. However, I was stopped by my mom as I was about to reach the door. "My my, Ochako, you didn't tell me you wanted to impress one of your friends. If that was the case then you should've just said so and I wouldn't have pestered you with the timing of all of this plan." I instantly blush at her statement as but was certainly expecting this from her. I loved her slot and we got along easily, but her teasing knew no bounds when it came to me and boys. "I-I a-am going now, b-bye m-mom." All I could do in that situation was get away, as I couldn't deny her, she was right, I wanted to look cute as always, but especially for him, that's why I took extra time preparing everything. I was wearing a blue skirt with long leggings to help with the cold breeze that could still be held back by the still powerful shining sun. I had a white t-shirt on and a green jacket on top unbuttoned that reminded me of Deku.

I was making my way to the park and realized that I was so excited and a bit anxious that I would be arriving a few minutes early at the park, but that wouldn't be a problem. As soon as I got there I sat down on a bench and enjoyed the view presented in front of me. The red and yellow color of the leaves that surrounded the top of the tree trunks around the park seemed to fit well with the slowly fading summer vibes. I started to wonder what we could do today after eating, and my mind was instantly placed on something I heard that was close by. Dagobah municipal beach is supposed to be completely clean, maybe we can go there and meet who cleaned it. Still, my planning was brought to a halt by a sudden "boo!" and slapping hands on the bench behind me that made me 'eep!' and shoot up from my seat, only to turn around to be met by his genuine small grin.

Heyoo. I said I would upload today soo yeah, you can already guess what I may start doing, it's just to explore the ideas a bit further and have good reasons and motivations for actions. Remember that you are amazing, no matter what they tell you. I hope you had and have a great days (breakdown breakdown. If someone gets that you get a metaphorical cookie) and I'll see you tomorrow.