Cold water runs down the back of my body
My eyes squeezed shut
I hold my body close
The vague scent of lavender body wash remains
I hold my chest like it's about to shatter
I cant breathe as the cold water
Pours over my bare head and shoulders
wake up
wake up
wake up
I tentatively open my eyes
I am still in the shower
It is still 3 am
I am still not in my body
My eyes close again,
Looking for the place where
I feel lightheaded and far away
The water does not wake me
The cigarette smoke after does not wake me
The prayers and incense do not wake me
My body racks with a silent sob
I don't remember when I started crying
There are no tears left in my eyes
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Lavender Scented Poems
PoetryWriting poetry because I'm in college and struggling with mental illness.
