🌙 late night poem thinking 🌙

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You fixed my eyes
You showed me that there's beautiful in everything
You unlocked my heart
Allowing me to feel more emotions and love people
You made me feel safe
Even in situations where you knew I could of died

But at what price?
To make me feel pain?
And then make me break down again at your command?
I'm glad you left
You were never really there
It was all my imagination
What I hoped could of been us
What I hoped was true

But all in all
You were doing it because everyone wanted us to be a thing
And my heart was too broken to care that it was because of society
My brain knew it wasn't because of love
But it wanted to believe it was so it gave in

I wanted to say no that night
But here we are,
Finally broken apart and I regret the year of fake love
At least fake love from you
At least I tried to find love in the relationship
And since I couldn't find any, I made some
And you greedily took it

I know I should move on
But it's easier said than done
And Elle,
If you somehow find this
I hope you have a great life

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8.19.20
215 words
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