Wanderlust [ editing ]

24. XO / The Host

        Have you ever had life going really great, but all of a sudden things come crashing down? And people will tell you that you're just having a rough week or day, but to you it feels like the world is falling apart right at your very feet. There's a flame in front of you and you're trying to put it out, but it just gets bigger and bigger until you're completely surrounded by it. There's 2 type of people in this world when it comes to this situation. There's the person that would look for a solution. Try some complex way to put out this immense fire. Even if it seems impossible, the keep trying. And if they fail, they failed knowing they did all they could. Then, there's the person that just stands there and watches. They watch the flame get bigger and brighter. Maybe they're too scared to put it out or maybe they feel like the best solution is to leave things as they are. They fire touches the ceiling and creeps though out the entire house and they stand there immovable. Growing up, I always saw myself as the problem solver. I saw myself as the person who could find one of many of the water bottles under my bed and try to put out the fire. Even if it wouldn't help much, I'd still do it. Up until recently I found out that I am not that person. I am the other. I don't try to find a fix for the problem. I simply do nothing or worst. I make the wrong decision.

        Christmas Eve started out fine. In fact, the day started out perfectly.

Slowly opening my eyes, I adjusted to my surroundings. My room was nice and chilly. I loved this. Yawning, I turned my head and spot Abel sound asleep. He was cute! Smiling to myself, I poked his nose and he moved a bit. I crept out of bed and go into my bathroom. I really should have let him slept. I looked out of my bathroom window and saw the sky. It was still really cloudy and you could barely see any sun. I hadn't realized I woke up so early. It looked like it's around 6 am. I have this habit, I don't know why. I like waking up early because it prepares you for the rest of the day.

  I stepped quickly in the shower and washed my body and hair. The water was cold, but warmed up after a few minutes passed by. I stood under the running water above me and thought to myself, looking at bathtub floor. I couldn't believe Abel was out there, in my room, in Virginia. How did he manage to fit me into his busy schedule? I knew Abel is constantly working on new music. The man never freaking sleeps! I sometimes had to drag him to bed because he just won't get off his damn laptop. Despite his career, he still found time to be with me and do things like this. I came to the conclusion that he would've done anything for me. He just wanted to make me happy and I adored that. I adored that he thought so much of me.

  Abel had been really busy lately even though we were on vacation. He dropped a song recently called Earned It which is going to be on the 50 Shades of Grey sound track. That is so weird cause that happens to be my favorite book. Anyways, we were supposed to get back to Toronto soon so he can work on the music video. He's wouldn't stop talking about it.

  After finishing the rest of my morning routine, I left the bathroom with my navy blue soft bathrobe. I went to my dresser and squirted vanilla scented lotion on my palms then I rub them together. I turned around and I saw that Abel was still sleeping. I once again squirted a big white blob of lotion onto my palm and slowly crept over to him. I counted in my head.

3...2...1! And I slapped Abel right in the face causing him to jolt up.

  "Kris! What the hell?!" He said and I fell into deep laughter.

  "I-" I continued to laugh "I'm sorry! I had to!"

  "C'mon! I barely sleep and when I finally do, you do this?!" he said with a pissed tone, but he had a wide smile on his face.

  "How'd you sleep?" I smiled and tilted my head.

  "Great until someone woke me up!" He rolled his eyes as he wiped the lotion off his face.