Moments before

Pain erupts through my body as I attempt again, one slit, two slits, three slits, four? more. I hear yelling of a voice and banging on the door, I look in the mirror, my normally bright green eyes were red and swollen, mascara streaming down my face, staining my usually rosy cheeks, my blonde hair was a mess, bits sticking out everywhere, the bits of hair that frame my face were wet with tears, they were right, all of them, I deserved to die, I look at my arms, red blood pouring from the wounds I had created. I stood over the sink staring at them until the blood slows down, I came to the realisation my time is nearly over, I felt dizzy, I stared at the door the banging had stopped, so has the yelling, but I could hear light sobs coming from the other side, I slowly unlocked the door, 'click' the sound seemed to make the room shake I open the door and stood in the door way, I see a figure scramble from my bed and come over to me, wrapping their arms around my shaking body, leaving blood stains over the shirt they were wearing from my bleeding arms, I softly cry in their arms, "I..... I'm....." I barely choke out, "Shhhh....." the soothing voice whispers in my ear, I feel dizzy, I feel like I'm falling, then I realise, I am, I'm not falling asleep just to wake up, I falling into a dreamless, endless sleep that I will never wake up from, "....sorry....." I manage to whisper before closing my eyes and never opening them again....

This is what some people have to go through everyday, not the depressed, sucidal person but the person who loses their brother, sister, friend, relative, because of what others say that causes them to hate themselves so much to go to the lengh to remove themselves of the Earth permently, while you're calling that girl fat or ugly and that guy over there weak and worthless someone you know and care about is feeling the same way about themselves, and when that person commits suicide you feel what? Upset? Heartbroken? What about when you're the cause of someone feeling like that? Do you think that it's funny? That this is a joke? It's not, it's a problem that unfortunately can not be solved, because people don't learn from others mistakes, the problem will just keep growing and growing and consume us all. How many people have to commit suicide before people realise what's going on?