Hey girl! I don't know if you will read this and even if you don't then its fine.
Today you turn 20 years old! Congratulations!! I wish I could have done something more for you than this or at least been able to give you something finished. I decided to write a story about characters based on us. It's far from finished but I think I will update it as time passes.
I hope you know how much I still love you. I think about you more often than I should and I cherrish the memories we have together. You could hate me and I would still love you. We could have not spoken for 50 years and I would still throw out my future husband if you came to my door and needed somewhere to stay. It doesn't matter how much time that passes, you will always be more than welcome to come to me to ask for help or just talk.
Once I meet new friends I always tell them they are great but that they will never be like you. You are truly the smartest, most genuine and loving friend I have ever had and will ever have. I don't want to admit it but I sometimes miss you being able to know exactly how I felt even thought you couldn't see or hear me. I still wonder how you did that...
I hope that your friends understand what great of a friend they have, or at least treat you better than I did. I hope you don't tell yourself things that aren't true, that you aren't good enought or that you aren't worth more. I truly truly hope that you knoe how much love you deserve and demand that you get it, no matter who.
I'm still going to watch Dirty Dancing with you, even if that never happends then so be it, it will be a movie that never reaches my eyes. But there is no way I'm watching it without you.
I'm so proud of how far you have come. I don't know anyone who has fought this hard to get where they want to be. You are truly a fighter and I will always look up to you. Despite that I wish that you have a friend you can talk to, cry in front of. Do you have that?
None of this might mean anything to you and that's okay. I know that I haven't been a good friend and that I have probably hurt you. I'm very sorry!
I miss you and I love you, always!
