I am still longing for you. I am missing you so damn bad, Honey. I am being occupied again with just your thoughts. With you I am still into. Despite of everything. You still got me. Your departure leaves me hanging. From better to worst I am going day by day without your presence. From your family to your friends, I asked about you. But there is no response from any of them.
𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐 𝒈𝒍𝒂𝒅 𝒚𝒐𝒖 𝒎𝒂𝒅𝒆 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒔𝒆𝒆 𝒎𝒆.
𝑯𝒐𝒘'𝒔 𝒍𝒊𝒇𝒆? 𝑻𝒆𝒍𝒍 𝒎𝒆 𝒉𝒐𝒘'𝒔 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒇𝒂𝒎𝒊𝒍𝒚. 𝑰 𝒉𝒂𝒗𝒆𝒏'𝒕 𝒔𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒊𝒏 𝒂 𝒘𝒉𝒊-𝒊-𝒊𝒍𝒆.
I pinch myself. I am not for surely dreaming. I know it is you. Nothings' change with you despite of how long time have passed. You are still is mesmerizing. You are as gorgeous as goddess. Still just as you are long time ago. But I can't see anything from you. I can't even tell your emotion. You just looking at me like I am a stranger. A stranger you never know nor ever met. It stings me but managed myself to talk. "Hey! It's me how are you?" I greeted you. "I am okay. Much better now unlike when we are together" your words are as a knife that swiftly stabs me continuously. It's been so long. After that incedent, we then never talk anymore. We never meet again. I never heard anything about you. Not until this day comes. So I did not waste my chance to talk to you. But in a cold tone you replied.
𝒀𝒐𝒖'𝒗𝒆 𝒃𝒆𝒆𝒏 𝒈𝒐𝒐𝒅, 𝒃𝒖𝒔𝒊𝒆𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒏 𝒆𝒗𝒆𝒓. 𝑾𝒆 𝒔𝒎𝒂𝒍𝒍 𝒕𝒂𝒍𝒌 𝒘𝒐𝒓𝒌 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒘𝒆𝒂𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓. 𝒀𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒈𝒖𝒂𝒓𝒅 𝒊𝒔 𝒖𝒑 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒌𝒏𝒐𝒘 𝒘𝒉-𝒚-𝒚.
I am looking at you intently. "Seems you are in a rush?" I asked you. "Ahm if you don't mind. I gotta go" you stated. "I have lots of things to do. 'Important things'" you added as you emphasize the word important. That caught me. You are really an unpredictable girl. But undeniably , I must be thankful that my feet brings me here. Here infront of you. As you were hailing a taxi for work. I offer you a drive but you refused. I just then left hanging. As I watch you walks away carried by that yellow taxi you hailed. A taxi again! For this damn second time. I was disappointed. I wanted to talk to you. Atleast for just an hour. But I was failed. I am such a dumbass. A coward dumbass. But atleast I've got to see you. After a very long long time. After years. I have given a chance to talk to you for atleast even just seconds. There are no emotions with your face. The memories of that cold night then flashes back.
𝑩𝒆𝒄𝒂𝒖𝒔𝒆 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒍𝒂𝒔𝒕 𝒕𝒊𝒎𝒆. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒔𝒂𝒘 𝒎𝒆 𝒊𝒕'𝒔 𝒔𝒕𝒊𝒍𝒍 𝒃𝒖𝒓𝒏𝒆𝒅 𝒊𝒏 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒃𝒂𝒄𝒌 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖𝒓 𝒎𝒊𝒏𝒅. 𝒀𝒐𝒖 𝒈𝒂𝒗𝒆 𝒎𝒆 𝒓𝒐𝒔𝒆𝒔 𝒂𝒏𝒅 𝑰 𝒍𝒆𝒇𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒎 𝒕𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒕𝒐 𝒅𝒊𝒆.
"Hey love where are you?" You texted me. "I am at home why?" I lied. "Ahm, nothing honey! just chekin' up on you" you then replied but somethings in it, I can feel. "Oh! Okay love. How are you instead?" I asked out of nowhere. But I was caught up with your reply. "Here at Cassavilles' Cafè. Watching over the two of you. Oh honey, don't be so bothered, dry your sweats. It is all over your face. I advise you to take of that leather jacket you were wearin' and I guess that girl infront of you is carrying a tissue on that pink purse she's holding, better tell her to give you a piece of it for your sweats". I was shocked. Totally! Damn it! I love you, I know. I can feel that I love you. But I am entertaining other girls. Damn you self! Fuck you! I was left dumbfounded.
𝑺𝒐 𝒕𝒉𝒊𝒔 𝒊𝒔 𝒎𝒆. 𝑺𝒘𝒂𝒍𝒍𝒐𝒘𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒎𝒚 𝒑𝒓𝒊𝒅𝒆, 𝒔𝒕𝒂𝒏𝒅𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝒊𝒏 𝒇𝒓𝒐𝒏𝒕 𝒐𝒇 𝒚𝒐𝒖. 𝑺𝒂𝒚𝒊𝒏𝒈 𝑰'𝒎 𝒔𝒐𝒓𝒓𝒚 𝒇𝒐𝒓 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒏𝒊𝒈𝒉-𝒕-𝒕.
