looking for love

chapter 1-the denial of feelings

Crees thoughts:

when i looked at my phone the gym i often go to messaged me they now reopened now they finished fixing the roof. i was happy now. little did i know i was gonna meet the guy I've been waiting for there. i always imagined this guy about 24 5 foot 5 and athletic would come into my life. i headed over to the gym and met my friends there. i saw the guy I've been imaging for ever. i didn't know his name yet. i walked over to him and started a conversation with him. he said his name was Jesse and he was filming a video there. he asked if i wanted to be in it, i said yes. he started filming his intro. he introduced me and then explained what the video was going to be about. it was a truth or dare video. i was excited as can be. its not everyday you get to be in a you tube video with a cute guy you've been imagining for ages isn't it? pretty sure its a coincidence that i met the guy I've been imagining. i hoped the camera didn't pick me up blushing, but Jesse saw me blushing, i said that i was warm that's all. it does get super hot in the gym, especially when there's a lot of people training in there. i couldn't tell Jesse i liked him just yet, i was too scared too.  Jesse seemed kinda suspicious but he didn't say anything else and carry on filming.  about half an hour later we were done with filming Jesse's video and we both went and got KFC. I told Jesse about me being transgender and he was cool with it. we both got to know each other more whilst we drove to KFC. turns out Jesse is also bisexual. but is more into girls. but sometimes he will choose boys. It's pretty natural really.  

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Jesse's thoughts(short bit maybe):

I  feel like Cree has a crush on me but he's too afraid to admit it. i kinda liked him too. I didn't tell him i had an argument with my ex. still getting over that chapter in my live still. i am scared of how Cree would react if i told him i may have been kind of abusive towards my ex when we both were fighting. maybe i wasn't abusive but it was something she had said I had done to her when we were arguing. I might keep that secret from Cree because he doesn't need to know that part of my life. I walked to my brothers house and played fortnite with him for 3 hours ad then headed home. I stopped at a restaurant that just sells pizza. Its a nice restaurant actually. I am an regular at there so a lot of the staff know me by now. Liam, one of the waiters sat me down and ask 'the usual Jesse?.' he knows by now that i love their sausage pizza. I smiled and said 'yes of course i would Liam you know it by now.'  I sat down by the window and waited for my pizza. i knew the wait for the pizzas here was around 20-30 minutes so i got my laptop out of my bag and play league of legends. after about 20ish minutes this woman comes up to me and starts screaming at me for 'scaring her child by sitting on my laptop playing video games' i looked up i saw her child and husband are sitting 5 tables ahead of me. the child looked about 5 months so it could not have been able to walk over here and looked at my laptop without the parents helping it. Liam came over with my pizza and saw what was going on. liam just ended with kicking out the crazy lady and her family. i felt kinda bad for the baby and the husband though. what a world we live in.