I Dont Ever Wanna Lose My Best Friend (Pierce The Veil Fan Fiction)

Chapter 4: She Makes Dirty Words Sounds Pretty

~Jewels P.O.V~

The last week has been a blur. Me and Jesse went to visit mom, then me and Dakota went back to her house and watched movies. Its Friday night and i cant sleep, im too excited for tomorrow. On the other hand, Dakota's out like a baby. I lay here and stare up at the ceiling, listening to Vic's soft voice telling me its gonna be okay when decide to get up and take a shower, i cant sleep anyways so i have nothing better to do. I grab my duffle bag and head to the bathroom, its 12 so everyone should be in bed. I turn the warm water on and strip. Before getting in the shower i open my duffle bag to get my purse out to find my bunched up wad of toilet paper. Eventually i find it and i unwrap the wad to pick out a thin, rectangle that relieves me of alot of my problems. I hop in the shower and sit down in the tub.
What if when i meet them tomorrow and they see my scars... what if they think im an attention whore? I think to myself.
What if i get kicked out because im not good enough to go and be in the same room as them?

My anxiety got the best of me.
What if my dad finds me at the concert and starts beating me? What if everyone laughs.
Worthless
Whore
Nasty skank
Slut
Bitch
Your never gonna make it in this world anyways, why dont you just give up.

For every name i made a deep, long cut on my wrist. The crimson red liquid mixed with my tears and made its way to the bottem of the tub and down the drain.

I sat there for a good while, i finally felt freed.
Dakotas gonna get mad when she sees the scars though.

My thoughts consumed me as i stepped out of the shower and began drying myself. It was now 1 o'clock and id had no sleep. I got dressed in baggy sweats and a sweat shirt and headed back to Dakotas room. I walked in to see Dakota up, rolling a blunt.

"Hey." I said, closing the door behind me.

"Hey girly."

"Whatcha doin?" I sat by her side, taking in the scene that was displayed in front of her on her table.

"Erm... rolling a blunt, How bout you?" She giggled.

"Well duh." I laughed and opened the window.

She lit it up and she passed it to me, "So you never told me what happened between you and Josh." I hit the blunt and passed to her.

"Well.."

~*Flashback*~
SMUT WARNING GUYS. JUST LETTING YOU KNOW!
~Dakotas P.O.V~

"So you wanna play Xbox and get high?" Josh asked me.

"Uh, Hell yeah!!" He pulled out his stash and i got to work on setting up the Xbox.

We sat there for hours playing Xbox, enjoying our high and just being happy.

"Fuck!" Josh screamed in defeat and threw his romote on the bottem of the bed, "YOU FUCKING BEAT ME FOR THE LAST TIME!" With that he jumped on me and started to tickle me.

"Josh! NO!" i gasped for air as he pinned me on his bed.

"Tap out!" he ordered. I shamefully did so.

He was staring at me, as still pinned me on his bed.

He bit his lip and looked down at mine.

I did the same.

He leaned down and our lips met. I wrapped my arms around his neck , and his arms snaked around my waist, his fingers playing with the hem of my shirt as he started to take it off, I copied his actions as i began doing the same with his. His hand slipped around my body and undid my bra skillfully, my fingers danced down his body to his jeans. I started to undo his belt, zipper and button, I felt a smirk against my skin as he took his pants off while i removed mine. My fingers were trembling with excitement, yet nervousness, although we had done this many times before. He brushed my cheek with his thumb I knew he was sensing my anxiety in our touch, with that, his lips crashed down on my, locking us into a deep passionate kiss,I felt his tongue against my lower lip, begging for an entrance, I denied him playfully and a smirk danced across my lips as did he. He chuckled and ran a finger slowly down my thigh. "You wanna play that game?" He breathed as he kissed my neck, I giggled holding back my moans of enjoyment when he came to my sweet spot and bit down slightly. He slid a finger slowly inside me, and my back arched and a moan finally escaped my lips as he wiggled it around feeling every inch of me, he saw his opportunity and he took it. He kissed me and quickly bit down on my lip, and started sucking. His fingers left my body and he straddled me, fumbling with what I knew was a condom. He quickly slipped it onto him and lined himself up with. He looked deep into my eyes, I knew what was coming.
"I love you, my princess." He smiled and I knew he meant it.
"Shh.. My love, speak with your body." I smiled at him as he winked and slid inside me and went to work, my nails scratching down his back as our bodies became one.
~*End of flashback*~