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PILL~1

( I remembered the first time it happened

The heart shaped rash appeared all over..)

WHAT IS THIS?

( The vague silhouettes of my worried looking friends, their voices as they laughed when they saw. My heart was racing. My head was spinning.)

When I came to sense, I was in a hospital bed.

Doctor : It's lovesickness.

Mom : HUH? What do you mean?

Doctor: For some reason, Arashi-Kun's body has an extreme reaction when he experiences love. You know how if the one you love won't be yours no matter what you do, its natural to have fantasies and daydreams?

Well lately, there are a lot of kids who get this almost allergic reaction from it. In Arashi-Kun's case, the moment he became aware he was in love . THIS BEGAN.

Children with the heart- shaped reactions are a bit special though. There's no need to worry. There are a lot of kids who have a hard time dealing with feelings of love. He'll grow out of it as an adult. Until he does, in order to keep the reaction from being an issue, be sure he takes this medication three times a day. If we start this soon, he should be cured by his high school graduation. We can reduce the dosage depending on how he does.

( Back then, I didn't think it was difficult to love someone normally. But I had no idea. )

YEARS LATER~

Girl : We're going out, aren't we?

Huh? Yeah.

Girl : Hey Arashi, do you love me? Because if you do, you've never said it once.

Honestly, I'm not too sure about it myself.

Girl : WHAT?!

BWAHAHAHA <3( Arashi's friends )

It's not that funny.

Friends : But to get a slap in the face in this day and age I've never seen it. It's crazy red.

SHUT UUUUP.... I was just tired from this report... I was just thoughtless.

Friends: Nice excuse~ How far did you get this time? Back to studying already?

YEAH, YEAH! I just messed up my lines because I was lost in thought.

Friend1 : What an asshole~

Friend2 : You really think that way?

Friend2 : Don't date anyone to begin with.

You can't tell if you love someone without dating though.

Friend1: God... You don't get it. You can tell they're important to you before dating, ok? And you can tell if you'll be able to fall in love. Butterflies and all that.

Butterflies, Huh? ( If I could tell it was happening, it wouldn't be an issuuuuue.)

( I can't sense if I'm falling in love . Ever since that day.)

( I still take medication to this day. Thanks to the reaction my body had when I was a kid, It seems that to work on lovesickness, the drug suppresses the feeling of being in love. In short, ever since that day I started on that medicine, I've had a body that can't feel love.

However....It's human nature to keep trying anyway. Ever since that day, I can't help wanting to be in love. )

Friend2 : Hey Arashi. They say not to chase the ones who leave you, but if you don't like them in the first place, don't go out with them. How long are you going to glare like that?

But what if they could end up being a person I actually love? ( Although, even if I have no idea. )

Friend1 : Why is this guy even popular? His face...?

HEY!!

( All I know is the effect of taking the medicine. )

Friends : I think they're not picky.

(But, if this reaction could be cured, then its possible. I can't help but get my hopes up.)

+scene change+

Doctor: It seems it may be fine now.

You think so?! ( instantly mood lights up:) )

Doctor : Hey Arashi-Kun. How about skipping a dose? Shouldn't it be ok at this point?

REALLY?

Um...!

(suddenly remembers about his childhood incident)

Mn... ( slightly worrying )

Doctor : You'd have your sensations back in no time.

Um... The hearts could come back again? Couldn't they?

Doctor : Statistically speaking, its virtually unseen after 20 years old. Though everyone is different. The rash may still end up appearing, but I doubt it would be as bad as it was before.

( I'm nervous about the heart marks appearing on my body again. But Isn't that the same as screaming "I'M IN LOVE!"? What 20 year-old man wouldn't be embarrassed?!

Damn it!.. Though I'm contradicting myself! )

Doctor : You can go at your own pace, but having a day where you don't take the medicine should be fine, right? Instead of taking you off it, let's just skip one dose. Besides, isn't it about time you fell in love?

( Arashi gets dumbfounded seeing the bright light coming from him ;) )

+scene change+

OF COURSE IT IS! (replying to the doctor's last statement in his mind)

( I say that, but... as far as that medicine goes, for now... [in the midst of searching his bag for the medicine] I FOR-GOT... THE MEDICINE.... )

Friend : What, you're leaving?

Yeah...I just remembered something.

Friend : Wanna go for drinks today~?

( I probably left it at home.) I'll pass today.

(I've been on that medicine for 10 long years. If it wasn't for this... If I'm supposedly cured, maybe it is the right time? Hmmm.. was I too anxious? If I stop the medicine I wonder what will change? At long last could I finally be cured?