Lavender

Chapter 19

i lay on my bear, not willingly, but i don't want to leave. i was thrown on it and i am lucky to find it still white, i breath in the scent that makes me feel so hopful to life.

it's been four weeks since i last felt Lozie's touch and it's sending my body numb, like it's going into a depression state. non of the men my Father has set me up with are kind, that ended with Bennie, i just hope he stops now because my heat could pop up any second........i hear my phone ring and i instantly grab it, opening it and looking at Lozie, "hay, baby!" he says, he always looks so sad when he sees me.

"i need you!" i whisper, "why can't you give me your hoodies like other boyfriends?" i whimper and he looks confused until his face drops.

"your heat?" he asks and i shake my head.

"not for another day!" i hum and drop my head on the bear and shut my eyes, only for the door to snap open, i jump up, the phone slipping from my hand.

"Who the fuck is that?!" my Father growls, i stare in shock..

"i-i-" he slaps the attempt at words off of my mouth, before picking my phone up, "wait-no, plea-" he kicks me in the throat, i gasp for air before i go into a caughing fit.

"piece of shit, you'll never see him again!" he growls and throws the phone at the wall with all of his directed Alpha, Buff strength, eblitirating that phone too.

"n-" he kicks me again and the instant loss of time with my mate, the need for my mate, my body calls out to him, needs him, trying to drag him to me.....BY A FUCKING HEAT, NOW???? he growls.

"fucking Heat, pathetic!" he kicks me and i am thrown to the side.....i need my Alpha, my mate.....i groan out in pain, the pain suffocating, i hear the door slam shut and i cry at the pain, i reach the broken phone and look at it....maybe i can sneak a phone from Holly or Uncle? i hug the bear that smells of home, comforting me, i then reach over to my dirty clothes from when i last saw Loz, they have his scent all over them, even though theirs chips, fish and curry, all disgusting and then the Lake smell, ew....but his scent is there..faiding, but it's there.........but not powerful enough, i groan and whimper, i need him...i need him so bad.

after a hella lot of sleepless horny nights of masterbation that never has the same effect as to what i need, i am laid there...with the will to live leaving me, "Hay, Hunny!" i hear a overly cheery voice say and look down, fear spicking.

"no-" i gasp and see the large man come over, he's Beta, not Alpha, which is slightly better, but i still need him to fuck off and not to touch me.

"i heard you wanted a mate and a good fuck!" he says and flips me over.

"i already have one!" i growl and push away feeling his touch burn me, he drags me down and i feel him cuff me to the bed, "No-" i groan, "NO!" i scream, thrashing about when i feel him enter, i scream out in agony as the pure pain of this, the heat doesn't even try to make this pleasurable as he begins to thrust into me, i cry.

"shut up-" he grumbles and grips my rib cage and tries to crush it, which is just painful, not as painful as my backside though, he continues to pound into me when i hear the door open again.

"Shut the hell up!" my Father screams but i continue to thrash and cry out in burning, agonising pain, he slams his fist into my jaw and does it again and again until i am only making small whimpers as my jaw is broken and my tongue is ripped to pieces and my throat is crushed, the next thing happens with so much upsetting and breaking pain.......he comes into me, hearing his groan, my Father leaves while i lay their tense.

"oh-that was good!" he groans and thrust once more, i lay ther like a dead person as he goes streight in for another round, "this is it-" he groans and before i know it, theres another load, he pulls out and uncuffs me while i just lay limp, "hay-" he slaps my face, "Wake the fuck up, you pice of shit!"he growls, sounding offended.

"why-" i whisper and he laughs, "you came into an Omega!" i say to him and his face drops...

"what?" he asks in utter shock, "your not an Omega!" he growls and i just lay flat.

"i have a mate....you came into me-" i whimper and begin to painfully sob, he stumbles back.

"no, i don't want to be a fucking Dad for your kids, i'm waiting for my mate to do that!" he growls and i just lay, "fuck, i want nothing to do with it!" he growls and knees my spine, i cry out in pain, "your mates gonna hate you now, having another man's child?" he laughs and turns me over, my cuffs now off, he punches my stomach and i whimper, "no one will love you or take you in, your gonna be alone for the rest of your pathetic life!" he hisses and then pulls away, walking out, only to come back with a knife and running it streight into my gut, i gasp in a giving up way as he pulls it out, "die!" he growls and i hold my stomach, my eyes wide with shock......i'm gonna die......