Poems by me

Time

"I remember when we went our separate ways

i remember it like it was my birthday

even though its once a year

it feels like its always here

i remember when you said you'd steal the moon

it was a cold and rainy afternoon

i said lets steal the world instead

and scream the songs in our heads"

suddenly tears are down my face

"i wonder what our hiding spot has come to now

the trees and paths and caves i wonder how

i remember i looked you in the eye

i told you to never say goodbye

i held you close under my protective arm

you truly believed nothing could do you harm

do you remember the stories i told

wishing neither of us would grow old"

i held my head in my hands as i read

"yes i remember all the things we used to do

feeling we could do whatever we want to

but what can i say, we were in love

i remember i used to call you my dove

you wanted to keep me under your wing

but later i gave you a ring

you weren't ready and i didn't want to linger

so i gave you a promise to put around your finger"

i looked down at the ring still in its place

"you told me some day we'd be wed

husband and wife was perfect in my head

we talked about our future open wide

so many plans the present set aside

through the years we were best friends

young and in love, the outcome depends

we fought one night and i knew our bond was broken

i never thought our love would be stolen"

i remember that night too well, it hurt to read

"we were so perfect until a wall was broken apart

piece by piece i tore your heart

drunk and unknowing i hurt you bad

i never knew i could be that mad

i committed the worst crime of all

i stood over and watched you fall

then it hit me what i had just done

but it seems the alcohol had already won"

i held my cheek , rubbing it and remembering the pain

"i never wanted to hurt you but i did just that

within seconds you fell to the floor mat

i held you wishing to take it back

sobbing onto your shoulder, replaying the harsh attack

you laid crying with me

but suddenly stood up and walked out the door timidly

i ran after you yelling please don't go

i waited for you not knowing you'd never show"

my emotions got the best of me

"those years with you were the best

but its time i have to be laid to rest

i'm dying my love and i want to see you one last time

a blast from the past before the bell chimes

i want to see my sweet dove once more

these last hours wont be such a bore

we'll forget the bad and stick with good

it will be like it should"

i stopped reading his scripture

and went to search for a picture

my frail old body limiting my reach

a picture of me and him at the beach

it was timeless and perfect

the struggle worth it

the photo captured our love

the sun so bright just above

splashing water and having fun

seems my emotions have already won

laughing at each other i suppose

i had sun burn at the tip of my nose

the picture was perfect i must say

i only wish i would have stayed

the promise he wouldn't hurt me more

and i answered with a closed door

the letter was sent years ago

we met again and wasn't alone

i still laughed at the joke he always told

suddenly i didn't feel so old

a hug and a kiss we shared

almost perfectly paired

we eloped quickly and my promise ring replaced

no longer calling me the girl he always chased

but that's over now and hes gone

i knit and my life is a yawn

they say absence makes the heart grow fonder

but I'm alone, left to ponder.