everything i wanted (COMPLETED)

Chapter 15

I had a dream I got everything I wanted but when I wake up I see you with me

Tom's POV

"How was your weekend?" I asked Y/n as I took a bite of my sandwich.

"It was good. It was so long though."

"Really?"

"Yeah, I'm pretty sure I hurt my dad's feelings yesterday?"

"How?" I asked.

I liked how she hadn't made eye contact since we sat down. She kept her trained on her nachos which she had barley touched.

She started explaining what how her dad seemed hurt after her voice came out harsher than she would've liked it to when she was asking him to leave.

"I'm sure he understands, I mean he's your dad."

"Yeah but you should've seen the look in his eyes Tom. It's like I just told him his pet hamster from when he was younger had died."

"I bet it wasn't that bad." I smiled. "What else happened this weekend?"

"You actually came up at dinner on Saturday."

"I did?" I said surprised.

"Yeah you did. It's all because of my dad. He likes you more than you know." She said looking up at me for the first time.

"That's always nice to know. How did I come up?"

A little bit after she started talking my mind went blank. I got lost in her features.

She couldn't maintain eye contact with me while she was talking so she look everywhere but me, only glancing at me a couple of times but diverting her eyes soon after.

Her mouth moves so gradually when she speaks and it's the cutest thing when she stutters.

A small smile creeps up on her lips as she explains her dinner with her parents but it quickly leaves as she tries so hide it.

The light on the ceiling above us hits her face just right so her cheekbones are glowing.

When Sam asked if I liked Y/n I knew I did I just didn't want him teasing me.

Now I'm sitting here watching her explain a story that I'm not even listening to and she looks beautiful while doing it.

I wish she wasn't so insecure. I wish she knew how beautiful she really was. I wish she knew how I saw her.

Sometimes I like think about how we could be together. How she would be happy all the time  and didn't care about what they said.

I imagine us going on our first date and us having the time of our lives and not giving a care in the world.

It's been like this for a couple of months now. Me secretly falling for Y/n and her not knowing a thing about it.

I feel really deep for her. Whenever I see her cry it's breaks my heart more than she knows.

I just wanna hold her in my arms and tell her that she'll be ok.

I get so scared. I worry about her all the. Whenever she calls I try not to sound to anxious when we're on the phone. When she asks me to come over I try not seem out of breath cause I technically ran from the bus stop.

Whenever I see her face my heart pounds to the point where I'm afraid she might hear it.

My hands get sweaty when she smiles at me and I try to play off with a smile in return.

I get nervous when I touch her. I don't want her to flinch at me.

I want her to feel safe with me. Like I'm a second home. I don't want her to be scared of my family or anyone that's important to me. But no ones more important to me than her.

"Tom!" Y/n shouted me out of my trance.

"Yeah sorry, what."

"You ok?"

"Yeah, just blacked out."