*I'm happy for you
I'm smilin' for you
I'd do anything*
The first time was an overdose.
*For you, for you
It's always for you
And never or me
and I need it to stop*
"Shut up! Go away and leave me alone!"
The door shut in his face.
The next day, he came around.
Flowers in hand, and a box, containing an expensive necklace in the other.
**Knock Knock**
Nothing.
"Shumai?"
A crash sounded through.
"Shuichi? It's me, Kokichi."
Nothing.
"I came to apologize. Can you open the door?"
Nothing once more.
Sighing, he held the box and flowers, both in one hand and pulled out another set of keys.
**Click**
Oh god. Oh no. Please no.
**No**
**No.**
The bottle was on the floor, the few pills left spilled on the floor.
____
*So let me tell you, please
I'm always sad
And I'm always lonely
But I can't tell you
That I'm breaking slowly*
The second time, it was from slit wrists.
-
Shuichi felt weak, how was he supposed to react to such a sudden heartbreak?
Why did...
Why did 'SHE' have to intervene?
The blade slid almost flawlessly over the pale pristine skin, red marks slowly littered his arms.
**It was his fault.**
The skin was opening, the blood covered his arm and hands.
Then, his legs.
Littered with cuts, almost like he was kissed by millions of demons.
So.
Much
**Blood.**
The terrified scream of who he supposed was Kokichi was the last thing he heard.
*Closed doors
Locked in, no keys
Keepin' my feelings hidden
There is no ease
I need it to stop
And I want to be able
To open up but*
______
*My feelings are fatal*
The third time, they promised eachother,
"Kichi?"
"Yes, my beloved?"
"What would you do if I, killed myself?"
"..."
"Kichi?"
"I'd join you. I can't live without you."
"Promise?"
"Yes! I'll love you forever and ever!"
Their lips pressed together, softly.
*My feelings are fatal
How many times must I keep it inside
I need to let go and I swear that I've tried
But opening up means trusting others
And that's just too much, I don't want to bother*
He broke his promise.
_____
*So I'll keep it inside and bury it deep
I know it's not healthy, but you won't hear a peep
Though I'm always sad and I'm always lonely
I could never tell you that I'm breaking slowly*
This time, they switched places.
Kokichi on the ledge.
Asking meaningless questions.
"Yes."
The tender kiss they shared.
"I love you"
*Closed doors
Locked in, no keys
Keepin' my feelings hidden
There is no ease
I need it to stop
And I want to be able
To open up but*
"Jump."
**My feelings are fatal, oh, oh, oh**
"I love you."
They held hands, sure he felt guilty but..
*My feelings are fatal, oh, oh, oh*
He was with the man he loved.
*My feelings are fatal, oh, oh, oh*
Even if he had to leave everyone else.
___
The fifth time, the end to this loop.
Shuichi, his beloved.
Fell out of love, and for another man.
