i hate you ||~j.h

𝚝𝚑𝚛𝚎𝚎

'this party better be good' i say an half an hour into our journey.
i
'it will be' she says
'omg i forgot to mention i know the people hosting'
'how??'
'they added me to there gc by accident and it's there party but the one who it's for is being really rude i sound like a five year old but he keeps saying stuff about me being a virgin we was on the phone and i started to cry' 'i'm sorry'
'it's fine it's just hard to talk about'

Heaven only knows when I'm in hell
None of my friends can even tell
I wanna fucking die, but I never say it. Sick of getting high, but I do the same shit. I can't even cry, so I try to fake it. I hate it

—
I pray to God, let me die in my sleep
I pray to God, let me die in my sleep
You're as sick as all the secrets you keep. But the truth is, I don't wanna be me. I pray to God, let me die in my sleep

Now I'm waking up and I'm not dead. Living off the words I know you said. I feel like I'm alive and I'm gonna make it. Maybe if I cry I don't have to fakе it. I'm giving up my pain, so you can take it. I hate it

I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I'm as sick as all these secrets I keep
But the truth is, I can only be me
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep

I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
I pray to God I don't die in my sleep
And now I'm sick of all the secrets I keep. I pray to God, let me die in my—

we listened to jadens new song it's actually not that bad. we pulled up to the sway house and got out of the jeep. 'you ready' the blonde said holding my hand. i nod and we walk in.

authors note🔪

so i'm on holiday atm and deleting whattpad when i go back to school which is in a week comment of you wanna take over this storie🥺

i'll carry on for now

okay that's it

bye love you all

remember your beautiful

and god loves you

and i love you

okey bye

-xoxo