But You Promised

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28th August 2020

Hello, J It's me. It has been a whole 4 years or let just say more after our break up. Tho at the start of our break up, it wasn't so smooth. I remember how I cried for a straight 4 days, cause I actually can not let you go. But you are so ready to let me go. I remember how I call up to you  4 days after our break up to beg for forgiveness. How I beg for you to take me back. But you decided to say no.

J, over the years I have seen you. From far away... I saw how happy you are. And I am so proud of you. Your hard work pays off.

And J... I knew that you got back with your ex. But I guess things didn't go smooth. That's why both of you decided to part ways again.

Yet, at that time I also hope we'll get back together. But no...

You got another new girlfriend. I saw how happy you were with her. I sometimes imagine how would it feels to be at her position? Haha

I visited Singapore. One thing I thought about Singapore is you. I was really hoping for a chance to meet you. But no. We can not meet up. You were busy. You said. Tho I really hoped you'd make time for me.

But who am I? I was this dumb and pathetic ex girlfriend asking for a meet up.

Until, almost 7 months later, I visited Singapore again. This time I stayed there a month. For work.

I actually think in that one month time I'd meet you. But of course no. You were going on a vacation with your girlfriend and friends at that time.

And I lost my chance again to meet you...

But, J then again you broke up with your girlfriend. Yet, I thought that this time we would get back together. But no.... you got a new girlfriend again.

At that time. I am really hopeless. I really wished you were still with me. But you proposed to your new girlfriend. Which is by now is you fianceé..

To say that I'm jealous of her is definitely ok. You must be so in love with her to be finally popping the question not long after you dated her.

J....happy birthday.. I don't know whether you will read this or not. But you gave me the best-est memories with the short-est time I have known you. I wish you all the best thing in life. Cause you deserve it. You gave me a high standart in how my next boyfriend should be. And because of you, I felt so loved and adored. Even in the short-est time.
You were really that special in my heart. I don't know you realized about that or not. But you are.

Thank you for loving me that much in that short time. I just want you to know how much I loved you once.

And to your fianceé..
Love him as much as how precious he was to me. Treat him better that I could ever do. You are going to spend the rest of your life with him, how lucky. You deserve him. More than how I wish it was me instead. You are his perfect match. I wish you both all the best thing in life.

J...
Thank you for being so loving and caring.
Sorry that I am not a perfect person.
I am so happy to see you planning your whole new life with your new lover. And I never regret anything that was done. You'll always hold a place in my heart, a good memories of course. Good luck on your life journey ahead.

Best of luck and much love.

Ciao,
Shintya🧡