y/n's pov:
"baby, we're home." i hear my girlfriend billie say as i look up at her smiling.
she gets out the car and comes to the door behind the driver's to open my door.
she grabs the two bags that we had and the paperwork before u got down with the carrier.
once we got inside of our house, she helped me upstairs and into out bedroom.
i sat down on the bed before taking our princess out of the carseat and into my arms all while smiling.
"do you need anything? are you okay? is the baby good? does she-" billie asks me clearly nervous as hell but she's quickly cut off by me laughing.
"what's funny?"
"babe, we're fine. please calm down." i tell her before patting the stop next to me on the bed.
"y/n, i'm scared.. what if i'm not good at this? what if i can't handle being a parent?" billie asks with a sad voice and looking at me with sad eyes.
i sigh before saying, "bil, you're a natural. i've seen you with kids before and the way you love them is exactly how you're gonna love bentley. you're gonna make a great mother." i said before planting a kiss on her lips in a reassuring way.
•••
i awake to crying on the baby monitor and me shifting to go and check on the baby made billie awake too.
"i'll go check on her.. you rest." she said leaving a peck on my forehead making me smile.
i'm so lucky to have her.
as i'm drifting back off to sleep, i overhear billie talking to bentley so i turn up the monitor.
"you're so beautiful, bentley. you have your mommy's nose and lips and my eyes and ears. you've made our worlds complete and i promise i'm gonna make you the happiest little person ever. right now i know that you don't understand what i'm saying at all but i hope that one day you'll know and understand every word. you and your mom mean everything to me and i'm glad that i have the both of you. goodnight, angel. i love you." she says and soon after i hear her kiss bentley's forehead and then faint footsteps heading towards our bedroom.
i hadn't even realized i was crying until i picked up my hand to wipe away my tears.
billie walked back in asking if i was alright and whatnot making me shush her.
"i'm fine- i just overheard what you said to bentley and honestly after i had her, i felt like you wouldn't want me anymore like i was unattractive and useless but hearing you say that to her just now, made those thoughts vanish. i love you." i say as new tears roll down my face.
"every word that i said a while ago and all during your pregnancy were true, you gave me the greatest gift and i'll forever be grateful. i love you more than life itself and i couldn't be happier." she said before kissing me and wiping my tears away.
i smile before turning off the lamp and laying down cuddling next to billie.
she spooned me as our legs intertwined together.
she pulled me close and kissed my neck before singing softly in my ear.
she knows that's one of the only ways to get me back to sleep and its the little things like that, that makes me love her so much.
i slowly start to drift off to sleep just listening to bil's voice and our heartbeats coming together as one.
•••
i wake up to laughter before checking to see what time it was.
8:30 a.m.
i sit up and wipe my eyes before going to shower and doing the rest of my morning routine.
i walk downstairs to see zoe and adam laughing with billie who was holding a wide awake bentley.
i smile to myself just admiring how beautiful she is.
"hey guys." i say making my presence known.
"y/n!" zoe said before coming over to hug me.
"hi, zoe!" i said excitedly to the godmother of our daughter.
"dude how are you feeling?" she asks.
"i'm good, zo. im so glad that i have bil to help me. she's such a great mom." i say before looking at billie who's looking at mr with this goofy ass smile on her face.
"you guys are so cute.." zoe said.
i laughed it off before going to sit down.
"so how's night one been?" adam asks.
"pretty good. she wasn't too fussy last night, so billie took care of her letting me rest." i said before grabbing bentley from bil and then lying between her legs.
i'm so at peace with our little family and it makes me happy knowing that i really am sharing this huge life moment with someone that i love unconditionally.
billie begins playing in my hair while we're having a conversation and nothing and everything with zoe and adam and before you know it, they've left.
billie kissed my head and then i kissed my babies head.
"i love you, baby.. so much." i say looking up at bil.
"i love you more, princess." she says before kissing my lips.
i love who we've become.
trying something new.. like this shit or don't read it at all. i love y'all.
