so as if late i never made an update since i felt nothing changed but i looked at myself and things DID change.
for starters in my life i joined a new pixelmon server to make me happier cuz the last one didn't end well. i am happy on here and i am a mod. at first i was scared but now i am happy i did it. i didn't have to correct someone badly yet lucky but still i am sooo happy i became mod. thats not all i became mod WITH MY BOYFRIEND, yes demon is still my BF and he is also staff on that server makes it that more fun to be on. lately ive also started to play fall guys and watching more anime's (if you read this issekai anime's are always welcome as a suggestion)
i do not have a job yet due to covid (curse this virus!!) but everyday i spent it with friends and i smile. not a fake smile i used to put up with my parents if they asked i was okay but a real one! i am still shocked about it myself TBH i never thought it could be possible.
i also really enjoy my little pony and finally found someone who likes it as much as me (ty for always talking to me about it marna <3) and that makes e happy aswell. as i am writing this its the 30th of august 2020. my thoughts RP has stopped for the most part and i only do it about 1 thing still i dont wanna get into to. but i am feeling better its like my life is falling into place. my BF is trying to talk to me coming to the US with him and TBH that doesnt sound so bad for me. i have alot of family but i never see them anyways so whats the point of staying here if i can run to love of my life? anyways enough about that i just wanted to tell my readers of this book if they ever see this that means i cared enough about you to tell you how I KICKY (i cringe at my IRL name) purple am feeling. i wanna let people i care about how i feel or how i come so far. i am glad to have all my friends i have so here is a special thanks to each of them who make me feel special:
demon aka pala: ofc you have to mentioned here cuz your my BF and idk what i would do without you. your the fire in my heart that makes me wanna just stay with you forever and always. you make me feel special with anything you do for me i am happy to have met you. lets hope for a future together. forever.
madsi: geez where would i be without you. your like my BFF i do stupid shit or i share things you hate (food pics) but despite this you still stick around with me. we are always bored but with you im always less bored since we can just randomly send each-other pics and laugh i feel as if we will be friends for YEARS to come and i see you being at my wedding even next to demon xD. you mean alot to me and words cannot express how much your friendship means to me. thanks for being my friend for 2 and a half years they truly meant a lot to me
bacca aka corki: we may not talk much anymore but i have heavily valued our friendship thanks to you i learned to smile regardless of the situation because it can always be worse. but to you i will say i am glad you are happy now and i will continue being your friend whenever you need it ill be there for you. because i care and i want nothing for you but happiness and smiles.
lena: you are my fav german friend. okay maybe my only german friend but still. you make me smile and honestly you introduced me to many other people. and i like that you are you and everyday i talk with you i am happy because to me you are a valuable friend and i never wanna lose you as a friend. (be my friend forever plz?) you are defo a happy soul to me and i wanna see nothing but happiness coming from my fav loli :D.
spit: *sigh* yes you mean alot to me spit regardless of you hurting me and madsi sometimes with trouble you get yourself in. i value our friendship and i am glad to have you as a friend to rely on if i ever need someone destroyed because they hurt me i feel like your the first one to take action and ask how you can help. i am glad i met you and i hope we can be friends for years to come.
marna: we may have only had a few months of friendship together but in those few months i came to like our friendship alot. i never had many friends who are female (idk why) and i can say i am happy to have met you and i hope we have alot of happy years ahead of us in friendship with you. you mean alot to me even if you dont know it yet.
to everyone who ever sees this story you mean alot to me and i wouldn't know how to live without you <3 my friends mean more to me then my own parents sometimes since you all always stay by my side no matter how much my head is fucked up sometimes you stay with me and i appreciate that alot. thanks for always being there for me i love you all very much please never forget that okay? and if you ever need a friend to talk to i will always be here if you need me love you <3
