STORY OF MY LIFE

Dillemma1

Hey, good morning. Am writing this to make things clear concerning what we have..Like the relationship we too have. Yes, we are so into each other, we love each other and the feeling is just mutual. I couldn't just ask for a better partner. You the best. You love whole heartedly. You care you loyal. I have had the best memories with you, both bad and good. Most of them being good just like you, priceless. Beautiful . You've been so supportive to me both spiritually, mentally and physically. I enjoyed everything, every second I was with you, I can't lie. All this memories are at my heart, they all written there I bet no one or rather nothing can replace them.

But then, it's unfortunate that we can't keep on having this affair. What!! I wasn't sure if I had read that sentence right. My heart was racing. How could one shower you with those praises then all over a sudden twist everything to this point. No way. I threw my phone away. How!?why?unending questions racing my mind. What had I really done?

I couldn't believe my eyes. I couldn't believe anything. I was in my own world filled with thoughts, both satanic and Godly. Why was I really born, to experience this? I thought I had found  a real man. A man who would never give up on me, who would do anything to make sure our relationship blossom. Now this? Noooo.. I sobbed uncontrollably..

I had cried for about a week and my health was deteriorating.I had distanced myself from everyone. Deleted all my social media accounts. I really needed peace which I thought could be found by being alone. By not associating my nose from any one's bs. My heart had stopped I guess. I was a mere sculpt of myself. I was hurt. The world seemed not to be fair on my side. Everything was missing. I felt like I didn't deserve to be alive. To experience what I was undergoing. I had lost it all, I thought.

How was I  supposed to behave when my mom and boyfriend all disappear at the same month? My mom passes at the beginning of the month then my boyfriend breaks up with me at the end of the same month.. It's like double tragedy since he was like my best friend. I shared all my secrets with him, be it good or bad, we shared the memories together and I thought we would make a future together. That drew me to the end line I had to stay over. This was the moment when I perfectly know that nothing good will ever last my way, not a thing Because all the misfortunes started when I was young, before I started I started schooling.....