The Mafias Girl (remake) ✔

Chapter 5

The boys were brought back and as promised Zayn was here to get the boys and watch them as I laid up in bed which was really getting on my nerves.

I laugh as Zayn groans to roll out of bed cause I hear Cole cry.

I can tell its Cole cause his cry is a little more high pitched then his brother.

He glares at me when he gets up and says "It's not fucking funny" while also pointing a finger sternly at me.

I raise my hands in mock surrender as I smirk at him.

He just shakes his head while sighing and goea to the nursery across the hall leaving both doors open.

I smile when i hear him talking in a cute and soothing voice to him.

"Hey there little man"

I see him manuver to the changing table so i guess he needs to be changed.

Next thing I know I hear him cussing.

"Holy shit!! Ypur so fucking small how the hell did you shit this much kod?!!"

I bust into laughter and said "watch the cussing with my kid yea??"

"Sorry...but how...jesus christ!!"

I laughed harder.

He eventually got it done and came in holding a very much awake Cole and cursing under his breath.

I smile at him and strwtch out my arms wanting my baby and he hands him to me and I cradle him in my arms and he smiles at me making me giggle and move side to side with him.

He shoves his little balled up fist in his hand and gums it down while looking at me with his big blue eyes.

Eventually he falls asleep and I lay him down in the attachble side crib next to me and stick his winnie binky in his mouth as i cover him with his blanket.

I turn to Zayn and he is looking at me.

I smile and said "What?"

"Your beautiful you know that"

I roll my eyes and he said in a very stern voice "Did you just roll your eyes at me?"

I nod my head eyeing him.

"Oh no baby you don't get away with that" he smirks.

"What are you gonna do about it?" I smirk challenging him.

He leans over and kisses me.

He caught me by suprise but then I kissed him back and dug my hands in his hair while his hands were on either side of my waist being careful not to put pressure on my bullet wounds.

The kiss was slow and loving at first and then it turned rough but passionate and I moaned as he bit my lip and pulled away.

I looked into his eyes and smiled as he lightly pecked my lips and then he layed on my lap as his arms circled my waist.

We fell into a deep sleep with smiles on our faces.

2 WEEKS LATER

"Damn it Jackie why cant you fuckin listen!!!"

So I got off bed rest but I was also FORCED to live with Zayn... Thats right... I said forced.

Motherfucker thought it would be a good idea... Until he made rules ones that he knew damn well I wouldn't follow.

"Because I've never fuckin listened you stupid ass motherfucker when have I ever listened you moronic dumbass??!!"

We are currently fighting cause I took MY kids too see MY friends without his fucking permission which by the way is rule number 2... Dont go anywhere without HIS permission.

"I give you simple fucking rules Jackie they are not that hard to follow!!"

"Rules that not even a fucking teenager would follow you stupid  bastard"

"You know what Jackie?!!"

"What Zayn?!!"

"Get the fuck out my house and dont you ever come back you are nothing but an ungrateful bitch and a slut and thats why you are all alone with two kids and i thought maybe if i played nice or like i cared you would let me in your pants cause thats all you are... A slut and a bitch and you will never be a good fucking mother"

Tears stung my eyes as he said that.

The same words that cut me so deep and were spoken by my own father.

The words that had me so fucked up mentally I tried to take my own life after the boys father left me and said the same thing.

Words that were used against me my whole life and i tried so hard to fight the depression it brought to me.

He is using them and now there is no going back.

I slap him so hard his head turns to the left.

He held his jaw and then turned to me and regret flashed in his eyes as he saw me crying silently watching him.

He went to say something but I was already gone upstairs to get my boys.

I won't stay for mental abuse.

I will never be treated like dirt again cause I have to be strong now...for my boys.

I put them in their seats grab my car keys and diaper bag and bolt downstairs to the front door.

I open the front door and head out to my car.

I put the boys in and when i shut the door on carters side i see Zayn coming up behind me...in fact he is sprinting his way to me.

I open my door to get in only to have it slammed and i would notice that cologne anywhere.

"What do want to say to me now Zayn?"

He breaths out deeply and his breath hits the back of my neck making the hairs stand up.

"Please... I didn't mean what i said.. I just..."

I shake my head and chuckle and said "I've heard this excuse a million times from 2 diffrent people they beg and plead me to stay and like a fool i have believed them but i won't get burned another time cause it just might actually kill me because..."

"Because why Jackie?"

"Because I don't want the man I love for the past 5 years to do the same to me as the other 2 but what I saw in there I know it will happen again and i won't go through it so if you please... I need to leave... At least for a little bit because weather you know it or not just those few words took me back to a dark and unforgiving past"

"Jackie I'm really begging you here and I'm not like whoever hurt you cause i won't do it again and I am a man of my word"

"The thing is... You can't garuntee that at least let me leave for a little bit... I just need time to heal after what you said"

He sighs and says "I will give you a week but after that i will worry so you got a week and then please come back to me... Im begging you here and i have never begged for anything"

I nod and he lets me get in my car and drive away.

I turn on the radio and head straight outta town to exactly were I need to be.