WHY CAN'T YOU LOVE ME THE WAY YOU LOVED HER?
I still remember the first day we met. Ako pa nga yung unang nag-approach sa'yo kasi napakamahiyain mo. Nireto ka lang kasi ng kaibigan ko kasi nga you're still in the process of moving on and you need someone to lean on. One of the memories na hinding-hindi ko makakalimutan until now.
And now, I am sitting in the place where we used to see each other before. Suot ko pa yung dress and necklace na binigay mo sa akin. Nandito pa nga yung sorbetero na palagi nating binibilhan ng paborito nating ice cream. Mga bata na naghahabulan, nagbibisekleta. Hum of the birds and especially our favourite part of the day which is witnessing the sunset.
Hayyy... nakakamiss pala yung mga araw na nagkikita tayo, yung mga araw na ang sweet mo sa akin, yung araw na tayo pa.
But everything has changed when she came back, your ex-girlfriend. Ang dahilan ng paglapit mo sa akin at ang naging dahilan ng paglayo mo.
Simula nung dumating siya, nag-iba ang takbo ng lahat. Naging madalang na ang mga messages mo. Minsan mo na lang akong kinakamusta. Minsan umaayaw ka pang makipagkita sa akin. Until, I found out na muli kang nakipagkita sa ex mo. At first, hindi ako naniwala pero marami nang nagsasabi sa akin na may connection ulit kayo. It was very hard for me to believe because I gave my whole trust to you.
Naniwala ako sa mga sinabi mong pagkatiwalaan kita and that's what I did. I talked to you but you keep on denying na hindi talaga, na wala talaga.
Dumating yung araw na pinakahihintay ko, your birthday and our anniversary. Nandito ako sa mall dala ang perang halos isang buwan kong pinaghandaan at pinag-ipunan by the reason that I wanted to surprise you. I was in rush kasi baka ma-late ako. I already got all the things I needed for my surprise.
Finally, nakarating ako nang maaga. I immediately approach your mom.
"Tita, nasaan po si Ivan?"
"Nandito ka na pala hija. Come and join us. Let's eat," tita's offer.
"Ah sige po mamaya na lang."
"Baka nasa loob, tingnan mo na lang."
"Sige po tita, salamat."
I instantly walked inside and I saw your friends, drinking. I asked them kung asan ka but no one answered. Without any hesitation, I directly headed to your room but your friend was trying to stop me but I found a way to slink off.
I felt something wrong but I stay myself calm. Dahan-dahan kong pinihit yung doorknob and thankfully hindi naka-lock. I slowly opened the door. Hearing some cracks and hearing some noise inside. I heard you giggling. Yung tipong enjoy na enjoy ka sa nangyayari. Hanggang sa tuluyan kong binuksan ang pinto.
I felt my knees trembling because of what I saw. I saw you with her, with Jane, your ex-girlfriend.
You were kissing her torridly.
You were both shirtless.
You didn't even notice my presence.
"H-happy b-birthday and h-appy a-nniversary, l-love." As the tears began to fall.
I grabbed their attention, they instantly covered themselves with a blanket.
"L-lorraine? I'm s-sorry I didn't mean to... let me explain." I didn't utter a word.
The darkness covered me with anger.
The night I did a horrible thing.
...
I suffered for less than six years in jail to face my mistake and now, I am finally paid off. Coming back to this place feels so good but with regret and pain. Still, I remember the last words you've said to me before I end your life.
"I tried to love you but I can't love you the way I loved her."
