Breaking down walls (Ereri / Riren) fanfic 💖

Chapter "23"

Eren's morning sickness had started, and he was not having a fun time. Sometimes Levi wouldn't be there because he had work to do, so Eren was left to take care of it himself. His mother had been very helpful with telling him things, but he found it a little awkward taking that he was a guy and guys shouldn't even be getting pregnant.

During the past week, Eren had been asked to have daily check ups with Hanji. It wasn't for the kid, but because she wanted to make sure that he was okay, since he almost died. Eren didn't really mind it, taking that he was also confused how he was able to live through something like that.

Ever since Eren had heard the story about what Roxas did, he tried to know the horse better. That didn't mean he sat down with the horse and had a jolly conversation, but he looked through Roxas's files. Eren wanted to know where he had come from and what type of upbringing he had, but could find none. He asked Reiner and Bertolt, but both of them said that Roxas was a gift from an unknown sender. Weird.

It seemed that Eren wasn't going to find anything, so he just classed the horse as magical for the hell of it. He gave up. But that still didn't explain want connections he had with Roxas. Maybe it was just coincidence and Eren was thinking about it too hard.

Levi had calmed down and resorted back to his usual depressing self. He had a lot of work to do, along with making sure all the Omegas that were taken made it home safely. Helen had gone back to Shiganshina and had been reunited with her mate. Eren still couldn't believe that she had one, not meaning that she actually had one, but she seemed so fixed on Levi - or Rivaille - that he didn't expect her to move on so soon.

Eren was in the library, reading a random fiction book and sitting by the window, when the doors opened. He turned his head and saw Petra walking towards him.

"Petra, I haven't seen you since I woke up," Eren said. She smiled and put her hand on his shoulder.

"Yeah, I just finished my heat and heard news that you are alive, so I came back as quickly as I could," she said. Eren nodded.

"How have you been?" he asked. Petra shrugged her shoulders.

"Nothing has happened much, so I don't really have anything to say. I actually came to talk to you and ask how you are," she said. Eren turned back to the window.

"I'm okay. It's a bit strange being back here after being imprisoned for two weeks, then having a close call with death, but I'm okay," he muttered. Petra frowned, knowing that there was something off.

"Eren, what's wrong?" she asked. Eren looked as if he was thinking about a puzzle.

"During the time I was asleep I had things to do, things that people probably wouldn't understand," he said. Petra sat down in one of the chairs.

"What do you mean 'things to do'? What did you have to do in your head?" she asked.

Eren didn't really know why he was telling her instead of Levi, but he knew he had to tell him at some point. It wasn't an amazing thing to tell, but he was sure Levi would appreciate knowing, if he wasn't in one of his foul moods.

"I needed to know what I wanted, want was in my mind. I found it. I locked it away seven years ago and it's starting to slip out again," Eren explained. Petra looked very confused.

"What was it?" she asked.

"A child that was forced to hide away because I was afraid. I locked away the child-me and forced myself to hold it inside, creating walls that no one could smash, until now," Eren said. Petra nodded.

"I understand, Eren, I really do. But, Eren, you need to understand that you are not the only one who has done that. I haven't done it, but I'm sure that even Levi locked away that child within him. He lived a hard life and was forced to grow up quicker. I'm not saying that the walls in which you built were just you exaggerating, they were a good thing. There are so many people out there who just follow in line and do as they are told. So many people who are copycats because it's what this person said. You protected yourself from those sort of things, and that is the best you could have done to yourself. There is a time when the real you must be locked away so that nothing happens to it, but you must never forget it and remember that it must be released someday," she said.