Fuck.

7.

I don't know what to do.
I'm sinking
I'm sinking
I'm sinking
I'm sinking
I'm at the bottom.
I feel the compression in my chest.
The pressure getting tighter and tighter
I feel it in my chest
In my throat
I claw at my neck in hopes of air
But nothing comes out
Not matter how hard I try to inhale my lungs feel tighter and tighter
Oxygen feels so close
Yet only water fills my lungs.
I try to swim up.
I push
I push
I push
I fall.
Down
Down
Down
Down
Down
And somehow, I'm deeper than before.
Every time I try to go up
I come back down
But deeper
I'm grabbing my chest
My heart feels like it's going to explode.
I need air.
My stomach.
It's being twisted by something deep in the water.
I can't see it but I know it's there.
It won't let me leave.
I need to think of something.
I try
And try
And try
And try
And try
Nothing works.
Everything I try only makes it worse.
My head is getting cloudy
My sight is getting blurry
It's getting dark
So dark.
Darker
Darker
Darker
Darker
Darker
Until it's almost pitch black.
I inhale
In hopes of grasping onto any bit of air
It's holding me down
It won't let me up
It won't let me breathe
It won't let me see
It won't let me live.
How do I survive this?
How do I get out of this?
Nothing is working.
I think
Think
Think
Think
Think
Nothing.
My mind filled with so many words
None of it makes sense
No sentences
No ideas
Just random
Jumbled
Nonsense.
Fuck.
It's gripping my tighter.
My lungs are empty
My throat is closed
I can't see it
But I feel it.
It's holding onto me with such a tight grip.
I try and pry my way out
It only gets tighter
I call out for help
No one can hear me
I'm alone
God
I can't even hear myself think
The pressure
The tightness
I can't breathe
What's happening to me?
I was fine earlier
I was swimming fine
Now it's like I've lost all ability to function
Only my mind
I'm stuck in my head
I need to get out
Fuck get me out
I can't get out
Can't
Can't
Can't
Cant
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can't
Can-
Wait
I'm going up
Up
Up
Up
I start to see again
It's getting lighter
The pressure.
It's leaving
It's less
And less
And less
And less
It's left my throat
It's almost out of my stomach
I'm right there
I'm almost out
But I'm stuck
I'm right there and I'm FUCKING STUCK
I stretch my arm
Stretch
Stretch
Stretch
Stretch
The tip of my finger grazes the top
The tip of my finger breaking throw
I feel the cool air on the tip of my finger
It's taunting me
No matter how far I stretch
I'm just stuck
It's wrapped around my ankle
I kick
And
Kick
And
Kick
And
Kick
In anger I scream
I hear it's shriek
It's ear splitting
I feel it's grip loosen
I kick
One more time
I feel my arm cut through the water
Piercing cold air touches my skin
My head
My face
I inhale
I can breathe
I made it out
I climb on shore
I lay on the sand
I made it
I did it
I'm out.
Sadly,
Tomorrow
I have to go swimming again.

~ My Personal Cthulhu