Breaking down walls (Ereri / Riren) fanfic 💖

Chapter "38"

A week and a half had past since the execution. Eren hadn't really gotten over it, and neither had Carla, but neither of them blamed Levi. Not one bit. Eren knew what he was doing and wanted to continue on fighting.

Someone who always fought against him was telling him to never stop fighting. It hurt.

It was only two days until their wedding. Eren was due to leave for Shiganshina tomorrow. The tailor had already visited the palace, and Hannes was accompanying him. Carla had taken the outfit back to Shiganshina. Petra had been pestering Eren for the last week about his vows, and finally, he had done it. The final one; he just hoped he didn't need to change it.

There was also some good news. Eren had experienced the cub kicking, and boy did it hurt. Levi happened to be right next to him when it happened. He seemed happy to feel that his child was alive and bruising it's mother's ribcage.

Eren sat in the library, reading over a new book. Levi walked in after a long meeting had just taken place. Levi had said that Eren wasn't needed because it had something to do with their wedding. Levi sat beside his mate and peered over his shoulders.

"Watcha reading?" he asked. Eren smiled.

"To be honest, I have no idea. This book didn't have a title, so I though it may be an interesting read. It is. It's got all sorts of mythical creatures in," he replied. Levi hummed.

"Reminds me of you," he muttered. Eren huffed.

"Whatever." Levi smiled and kissed Eren on the cheek.

"Come on, I'm hungry," he said, before getting up and walking to the door. He turned back to see that Eren hadn't moved. "Eren, you need to eat. You are feeding for two people. Don't starve yourself because of Grisha. I told you I'm sorry," Levi said. Eren looked to his mate, confused.

"Why are you apologising? I told you that you didn't do anything wrong. I'm fine, really. I know I need to eat," Eren asked. Levi sighed.

"Then why are you being so miserable. I understand that you felt a connection with him because he was your father and you felt yourself opening up to him, so why don't you just cry? You look like you're holding in emotion that should never be held in. I won't judge you for crying over a man who deserved to die," Levi replied. Eren smiled sadly.

"As if I would cry. I'm just a little confused still, and now I don't have anyone to ask," he said. Levi frowned.

"What about me?" he asked. Eren smiled.

"I ask you serious, realistic things. Grisha always went on about the impossible. He was the only person to know what was going to happen to me if I was an Alpha," he said. Levi looked a little concerned.

"Eren," he said, walking over to his mate and putting his hands on his shoulders, "Tell me honestly. What emotions are you feeling?" he asked. Eren looked confused.

"What do you mean?" he asked. Levi shook his head.

"You know damn well what I mean. Answer the question! What emotions are you feeling?" he asked again. Eren smiled, but it soon disappeared as he rested his head in Levi's shoulders.

"I feel lost. I want to know what a father is. It was only until Grisha's last moments that I felt it. He told me to carry on fighting. Is that what a father is supposed to say?" Eren asked back. Levi stroked Eren's head.

"I wouldn't know either. My father died when I was born. But I'm guessing so," he replied. Eren smiled, before he felt tears roll down his cheeks, dripping onto the floor. Levi was silent as Eren cried silently. He wrapped his arms around Eren, allowing him to cry into his shoulder. Eren gripped onto Levi shirt and wept. It was so unlike him, but for someone to only experience fatherly love in the last few seconds of their fathers life - it was beyond painful.